:: x[[ UchihaNanaka]]x ::

Water droplets

2012-01-08T01:55:00.001+08:00

强颜欢笑着。

hate

2012-01-08T00:57:00.001+08:00

I hate this world. Hypocrites!

So much for a garbage relation for 6 months. FUCKYOU _!_

Hate 2

2011-12-25T22:12:00.001+08:00

Continue to talk bad about me. I will Break u with all I can.

Hate

2011-12-25T21:25:00.001+08:00

I hate xmas. As expected I didnt have a gd xmas this year too. Fuck xmas

Lost them all...

2011-12-25T00:17:00.001+08:00

那个曾经给予我温暖的地方。。。如今以容不下我的影子。估值将是我灭亡的导引。失去了家，失去了爱也在此证明我将被世界遗忘，渐渐的从这个地方消失。
我累了。只想躺在床上，渐渐地，无痛的死去。也许，这样离去实在太便宜了我。伤了无数克心。。。
让我痛啊~
痛不欲生。。。
让我永远记住那种感觉。
提醒自己
留下疤痕
作为时间的证明。

圣诞呢。17年了。。。都是这样过的呢。就让今年和往年一样吧。
至少只有你流血。
在这冷冰冰，黑黑暗暗的小房里，继续延续着不重用的微波的小生命。

-永远的小蚂蚁

living is toughest thing ever

2011-07-06T21:48:00.002+08:00

Time to rant about life yeah?

I can't take it any more.

I wish life had mercy on me.

I wish i wasn't invisible in class.

Why..

What exactly did i do.

Why do i deserved such treatment?

What would you have done if you were in my shoes.

I can't walk down anymore.

Hypocrites.

Im slow. Im lazy. Im stupid.

Im no longer of used to you people.

So you people threw me aside.

Leave me to die.

You had no obligation.

I was never important.

Im merely your stepping stone.

Where the glorious days.

We talked. We laughed. We share.

We walked by the pond.

I question the two.

Both replied i had you to count on.

2 weeks later.

What did i see.

What did i experience.

Empty promises just to talk your way tru me.

Leave me alone. I doubt i care about GPA any more.

School is meaningless.

Everyone works alone.

Everyone flocks to be friends with the smartest.

For 3 years.

Everyone's gonna chiong 365x3

And after that, stay bff with the tops.

Realistic.

Like any other human.

I sit in the corner of the class. (thanks for stealing my seat in the 2nd row btw)

I listened. Fell asleep. Copy notes. Stare at my phone.

None of them can be compared to the number of times..

I stared at you. Stared at her. Stared at other classmates.

Laughing. Smiling. Chatting.

I did not speak for 3 hours.

3weeks before. U changed.

I ask what's wrong.

There was no answer.

U need not say a thing.

I probably knew the problem lies with me.

But nobody's perfect.

Tell me in my face and wake me up.

But if you don't.

You probably wants nothing to do with me ever since 3 weeks ago.

I must thank you people.

I had enjoyed my 2 months stay in the class.

For the coming months....

Im not even sure what i should do anymore.

What used to be my motivations in studies.

In striving.

Guess it ends here.

Ive got 600+ friends on facebook.

But in reality..i only had myself.

Ive probably only had myself since i was born.

If only i didnt reached this world.

Maybe you've laughed at my foolishness.

This fool who decided we might hit it off and be good friends for life.

Im sorry. I was a nuisance.

Ive changed. But i had not changed enough to be a human.

Still as inhuman as before. Maybe slightly better.

Its not enough.

The world works this way.

Do or die.

People says im strong.

I wasnt strong the day i was born.

Ive gone tru a lot.

And now. Its another drama.

Ive no idea how to see tru this.

All i think now is.

This agony. Leave me alone.

Why am i alive?

I shouldn't be alive.

xNanakax

love

2011-06-05T02:27:00.002+08:00

i want to love you badly.

so badly it hurts.

hurts worst when you can't forget her.

and as i beg u to stab me with those pieces of swords.

Instead of making me give up.

The poison just got deeper.

Every line we exchange.

It just made me wants you more.

Thank you. Im sorry. Forgive me.

unforgettable

2011-05-25T02:14:00.000+08:00

You're on the phone with your girlfriend shes upset
Shes going off about something that you said
Cause she doesnt get you humor like I do

I'm in the room its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts I wear t-shirts
Shes cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you and your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughin on the park bench thinking to myself
Hey isnt this easy

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine I know you better than that
Hey whatcha doin with a girl like that

She wears high heels I wear sneakers
Shes cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreamin bout the day when you wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why cant you see
You belong with me
Standin by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know
Baby, you belong with me
You belong with me

Oh
I remember when we were driving to my house
In the middle of the night I'm the one that makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me bout your dreams
I Think I know where you belong
I think I know its with me

Cant you see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why cant you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know
Baby
You belong with me
You belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

taylor swift - you belong with me

xNanakax

life working

2011-03-31T02:23:00.002+08:00

Hello Blog n People who always read my blog. (OTL only 2 ppl)
I havent update for a long time haha.
Ive got no time. Now i have! Ive finish my contract.
Hanging out with people now.
Currently hanging out with this guy...

Im not totally positive. Im skeptical about life.
God has never been extremely good to me.
I believe one day we'll part. Im just seeing how far we can go.
Man im real sadist.

Anyway Im hooked on xian jian's song currently.
The one on my blog.
Real classic man. Since P4?
Till now is still my favourite song of many more fave song in xian jian.

I collected my Cert Yesterday. It was great.
Except the front desk lady... is really slow.
And i just ask only why sch never sent notice.
She's like "cuz it only arrived recently" in a angry tone.
LOL
People from other schools already received it last month.
MSL really lousy school.. govt oso look down on us right?

Wadever. Im posted to this stupid engineering course.
I chose that cuz my parents refused to enroll me into Animation 3D arts.
Now ive got to live 3 years studying hardcore Math n Physics.
Haiz.
I'll just lived with it. Learn to love it. Learn everything about it.
I shall force myself to study it. I might go crazy but heck care la.
Study then study this lor.

Honestly my family all better in science stuff like chem bio.
Tsk cuz cn memorized ma.
Ive got to build some common sense in my brain. Sad.

Ive also enroll myself into Japanese class @ NP
Awesome can~ Finally can learn my jap.
wait 4years already.
Heng i change to SGship.
If not no PSEA to buy this Module

Me still wants to cosplay @ Tsubasa club NP uh.
But then i want to learn to perform instrument.
I'll probably chiong into string/keyboard club.
Worst come to worst..go CO lo. NP CO.
Hahahaha.

okay meh wants to tell my blog chan~
Byeeeeee be back if im not dead next session. lol OTL

xNanakax

1st post in 2011

2011-01-03T21:52:00.004+08:00

hi 2011bloggie!
I'm back and i missed you.
But i guess no one comes to read you anymore.

hahaha so many months...ltr

2010-12-12T03:43:00.002+08:00

my cosplay picture... kida masaomi durarara~

hello peeps. im talking to myself lol...
cause its been idk how many months since i wrote again.
Work is really not easy.
Finished o'levels. i have no eyes to see my results.
Whenever i am over stress at work..i start being breathless...nauseous..
haizz...me and my fucked up life.
lost 2 wallets within 4months? fuck la...
not much to talk about. except my life is really fucked up now... lol
just walk one day go one day hahaha ... ... -___-

xNanakax

p.s my phone is spoiled...life without music is excruciating.
gime bck my mp3 player -________-

Bullying is not correct.

2010-08-09T23:02:00.002+08:00

Bullying is not correct.

Online bullying is worst.

Online bullying by teachers are unforgivable.

Even if you fucking meant well.

It is NOT CORRECT.

Assume = ASS U ME

SO DONT DO THAT.

o level

2010-08-05T21:04:00.003+08:00

80 DAYS TO O'LEVEL

So as you can see... O'level in 80 days is freaking me out.

I did really badly for my prelims.

Well... I didn't put in efforts so what can i say?

But my humanities has really done me wrong this time.

I did not expect it to fail.

It wasn't a bad fail but LOOK...

Im always getting A1-B3 for humanities.

It was my best subject after chinese.

It was a total depression.

Amath and Emath was even worst.

I wonder if i could even be graded.

I've decided to quit my tuition.

I need the time to do TYS.

Well i've officially quited anyway.

For POA...

I feel that there's still some hope actually.

Well i did got F9, but because i did the TYS and

i have a great mentor like Yong Guo* dun tell him cuz he'll get cocky*

that's why i didn't fail as badly as i thought.

For my Chemistry...

Im happy with the results...

BUT not satisfied with it at all.

I have no idea what is wrong with my physics..

I've always gotten A2,B3 for it.

This time i fail with a D7 grade.

Fucking pissed off.

It's all the formula that i have to stuck it in my head.

I learnt my lesson and studied the formulas for the MCQ paper...

Fuck i got highest among the 6 people..

It just proves me that if i studied, i can actually do it.

Ms yeo says i have to cut my anime addiction down.

Yes...so it's going to be a difficult time for me.

Some idiots actually created an anti ms yeo Facebook page...

I wish that person die in hell somewhere.

3 more months and i'll be free.

I should really try to endure and stop going online.

Tys everyday...im starting to love it.

If its science or amath chp that is taught the latest or some easy emath chpt...

well chinese results for o level is going to come out soon.

I hope i don't have to cry this time.

I know i put in A LOT! of efforts for it.

And if stella is reading this...

I'm pissed that your essay actually got selected.

I know it's mean for me to say that but ...

ai yah i jealous of you mah..

take as your honor la...

im still gonna be jealous anyway...

so ok IM JEALOUS + PISSED whatever ..... OAO

Yours truly

Nanaka T.T

school

2010-06-27T23:09:00.002+08:00

The school Freaking needs to be more efficient in delivering the school Time table to the net.
It is always so last minute and expect us to not fret.
How can we not panick... -_____-

Anyway, GakupoXKaitoXLen = IMBA+FULL EPICNESS
I love their songs!
Imitation Black, Setsugetsuka and FateRebirth xD
Magnet has many version, the one in my songlist wasn't the one i wanted to show...
But it's decent... haha .. ironically the lyrics are seductive and not decent.. LOL

Aya!! My anri chan...
Durarara has come to an end which totally sucks...
How could me! Kida Masaomi fled with some saki which is so -_____-

I just bought that really yellow YELLOW scarf today..
Well i just have to do with this one...
And It's only 2 bucks! so cheap!

I've got my white jacket to paint still... those words..lol
Then i'm ready since Hikari gonna sell her wig at 25 bucks..
YaYY ... left Kida's Cell to make...
And Ryuugamine Mikado Will Be my Seme.. LOL
Pat chan is my seme but is hikari's uke .. hahahaha

After this I shall make Angel Beats! cosplay.. whoo hoo...
Who shud i cos? TK? HINATA? Vice Prez? ehhh wait all boys...
Yurripe! hahaha tats female!
Aww man so sad... angel beats! ended too .. story damn sad...

I can sing magnet and im addicted to it.. HAHAHA
Someone.. DUET with me!

x Nanaka x

ban from using com

2010-06-21T16:11:00.002+08:00

like my title suggest...
ban from using comps..
update on th request of stella..

Many happy memories at scape.
But many regrets in life too...
I dont expect any thing from my family..
I just want to enjoy my hobby..
I chose th wrong decision...but that doesn not mean i dont love my parents..
I just thought that...everyday could be father's day...

I don't have much friends...I feel accepted with my cosplay friends..

If that much of me ..you guys also wanna take away..den i dono wad to say..

6mths ive been trying to be nice to my dad..
he ignore me but i still keep quite and be nice..
It was 2nd bro who say "i dono anything...call home urelf"
Very selfish..dont even ask me back..
so i did..
den hw my dad responded...i got angry at tat moment..

I really dono tats y i ask..
I was really uncertain of what to do...

First time hearing tat it is wrong to feel uncertain and ask question.
Ive been rly nice to my mum...
I accept her religious views even though i dont like it...
I join her and I feel happy for her...

This time i have a hobby...
Why can't she feel happy and enjoy with me..
Cosplaying is nothing bad or obscene ... i didnt rob or kill
Why does my family look at it with colours?
Why my only source of friendship...ppl there accept me..u guys also dont let me hang out with them..

If i really hate dad... why do i cook for him.. ask him if he need help..
ask him if he wan to eat or look at his mails for him..
or call him PA..
I cud have ignor all th way like 3rd bro did...
Why do i joke with mum...go temple with her...
help her wit chores...
obey her all th way..
it was only 1 single dinner and u ppl had to be so extrem..
If we rly have th heart...
EVERYDAY is FATHERS day.

-wendy

Long Long

2010-06-06T23:16:00.002+08:00

Osashiburi desu minna san...
mo ichido~ gomen ne~
I didn't update again...

C'mon does anybody actually read my shit anyway?
This holiday ... i guess it ain't gonna be a fruitful one...
So lazy... so bored... rolls around...

Tga event on June 19 and 20
Co splay for the 1st time is gonna appear on NDP!
Universal studio tickets!! Korean Bands... WOW ...
Ever since Shawn is here... cos play is heating up... thanks Shawn!

Everyone seem so cold lately...
Well i guess im not the type where people would love to shower their love to...
Nobody cares for a workout with me... how sad...
Sabishi deshou? kono sekai wa... kono sekai no ningen..zenbu tsumetaii yo~

Currently watching Durarara!!~ in love with shizuo san! hahaha
in this show.. almost everyone is the protagonist...
but i think they cover more of celty though...
thinking of cosplaying Durarara! whoo hoo

Anyway i'll be doing Mukuro from KHR for TGA
Thanks to Hikari for lending me her stuff... Arigatou na~ Hikari-chan! tasukatta yo~

Toriaezu...Pin Xuan chan will be singing with me at TGA... Look Foward Yea~
Anime fans from school is increasing recently...
More otaku!
I think if i round them all i'll at least get a class of people...
Can open Otaku Club already... haha
Don't think it's impossible... even cosplay can appear in NDP LEH!

Jaa kyoo wa no reportto owaridaa...
Tanoshimi da yo... TGA
okay... Jaa ne minna san...
Atashi no blogku mitte tte arigatou yo...
Oyasumi =D

xNanakax

Updatessss

2010-04-30T21:05:00.004+08:00

omg~~~~ gomenasai minna!
It's been 5000000000000000000 yrs since i updated!
Just had English exam today and MT exam yesterday.
Well you could say it's more or less fine..

First... my trust was betrayed... shinjiranai
I can never bring myself to fully trust anyone anymore...

Second...i feel that my best friend has distance from me...
I feel that every single person around me has a mask...
Yes...it's true.. even i have a mask...
without mask... we wouldn't be called humans...
Because human beings are ugly after all~

Thirdly... I'm obsessed with Katekyo Hitman Reborn!...
To the extend that i have already catch up to the newest episodes...
I even managed to brainwash Pin xuan ... now she's at 104...
MUAHAHAHAHA~~~ KU FU FU~!

Lastly... Tantei Gakuen Q IS A MUST WATCH!!
THE DRAMA!!! OMG YAMADA RYOSUKE!!!!!
OMG U PEOPLE FRIGGIN HAD TO WATCH THIS!!!!
THIS IS MY GREATEST RECOMMENDATION!!!

In conclusion.... my life this pass few weeks has lemon...
But i manage to make some lemonade.

I WANT TO COSPLAY KHR!!! YAMAMOTO OR GOKUDERA OR DINO!!!

KAMIKI RYONOSUKE!!! - KYUU RENJO

Watashi no ANATA! YAMADA RYOSUKE! - RYUU AMAKASU!
SO HOTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!

x Nanaka x

Photoscape

2010-03-17T16:29:00.001+08:00

A cool software i found! NICE EDITING FUNCTIONS! LOVE IT!

Holidaying...

2010-03-14T21:07:00.004+08:00

Nothing much to post about ne...
Can someone tell me all the homework?
siann...

Have a few characters to cosplay..
Kuchiki Rukia of bleach
Karin (Team Taka) of Naruto Shippuuden
Enmma Ai of Jigoku Shoujo

Rukia's costume getting it at the end of the month..
Karin's would be longer...June or may then get the cloak..
The shirt dono where to find... the pants anywhere oso got sell..

Karin wig i gonna search from Taobao.com
Rukia hair .. my own hair can style..
Her sword i gonna make my own.. use wood.. hehe

Enmma ai should be long long later liao...

This is me in Kuroshitsuji black butler's cos...

Right now.. i dono why...
everyone likes to put their attention on me..
i don't like it... though u meant well..

Anyway... Granny B'day in shangrila damn fun
So many lame jokes by cousins..

got 4 table...
The elderly...
The women Street..
The children playground...
And the Youth HOT PARK
LOL
Seriously.. we sat like that and it's weird

went to karaoke after that..
Damn fun..
Very tired... but enjoyed... =D

x Nanaka x

Hibari!

2010-03-06T23:50:00.001+08:00

Feelings

2010-03-06T21:12:00.003+08:00

To all schoolmates who are concern of my recent events~
I'm really fine and sure I could handle... Thanks for everyone's concern.

Nowadays I'm really going down to costasia too often...
I need to save up my cash..
I'm teaching tuition to save up more...
So right now I'm enjoying all my saved up money...
duh...
I need to buy rukia's shinigami costume..
Perhaps wig... and i need to make her sword...
Then i need make ups... And gotta buy the shoes...

My Imooto-chan is so cold to me...
I mean... why can't we get along well and fast?

I met a lot of new people and friends ever since i joined K~OsPlay
And I felt more purpose in life...
However...

Sometimes... I just think He had done too close...
I mean... I'm not a cheap or despo girl...
So I suppose it's only right to keep a distance...
I'm too slow to realize what I did was overboard..
And Situation that makes me awkward happens...
I'm too naive... I shall make a borderline...

My life have been really Hectic...
I joined A.math tuition today...
OMG~ why Havent i Joined earlier??
Even though i know nothing about Integration..(opp.of differentiation)
I could actually catch fast and understand what was going on..
At first it was really mars and alien language.. but i slowly spot the pattern...
I really appreciate having a.math class..

I'm teaching math tuition to my junior now as well..
It's quite interesting...
I finally understood and learned to appreciate all my math teachers..
I feel so sorry for them...LOL

Well.. that's more or less my life story here...

About things that happen in class... I've once again learn not to be bothered by it after cooling down my head... I shall continue to think positively as always!

x Nanaka x
[K~Osplay Member:Uchiha Nanaka]

hello folks

2010-02-27T03:09:00.002+08:00

Hello folks... dont expect me to upload any pics...
Pls visit my facebook if you have to.. xD
long time no blog...

I joined cosplay finally~
Dreaming since sec 2...
K-osplay..costasia

then i have 3 new onii chans and 1 imooto chan~

1. Hash onii chan
2. Yin lun onii chan
3. Samson onii chan
4. Wilson onii chan
5. Yuki imooto chan~

gosh i love them all...
fun people and cute too <3
Very capable, talented , justice kind!

though im upset that feb 26 is no good.
Just 1 month after my bday ... so many ppl get dump...
WTFH?

Well i visited costasia...
Get to join chingay

fail many test and stuff

But look on the brighter side!
It will all eventually pass away...
time heals! i guarantee~

xD

cheers everyone!

xNanakax

Happy CNY!!

2010-02-14T17:43:00.001+08:00

I find this so humorous! Omg~

truth be told

2010-02-12T13:41:00.002+08:00

I believed the world is bias as well.
However, let's make the school a safe environment for everyone.
Physically AND Mentally.

Although XX was actually the one who suggested banding...
I though agreed and merely bring upon this suggestion,
I will still go with the majority.

People who insist too much will suffer. That's what I learn from all me lessons.

Let's all change and be better.

xNanakax

pics

2010-01-30T20:42:00.004+08:00

I love the balcony view at granny's house.

My birthday gifts~

dead

2010-01-30T20:23:00.002+08:00

Im too busy and lazy for updates.
My phone drop into the cup.
So just got it back from nokia care store.
LOL.

Everything in memory card gone since i made a PW and forgot about it.
I was late 5 times this month.
My biggest record.

I had a great birthday this year.
okay no cakes.
But its sweet sixteen yea?

Danny and lala bake me ermm swiss roll with not much cream?
But it taste great u noe! xDD
then they gime this anime gal t shirt too.

Jealous larh! i got fren bake me cake u noe! LOL so touching!

then xin ping and jing suan funniest sia...
Bought me moisturizer!! for my hand! HAHAHAHAH or rather its me ROTTEN FINGERS
and 2 key chain teddy bear as well

Mum gave me ang pao after 3 days... cuz i noew she rly forgot de la... haha

no one in the family wish me happy bday cuz all forget.
so in the end no one rly mention anything.

si min and pin xuan gave me d gray man necklace.
my 5th necklace and i love it!

pearl gave me a BAGPACK full of LOVE! xD

Shi ying gave me a mickey mouse MUG to MUG for ExaMs!

Kwan lian gave me Pre b'day present which is my uchiha clan necklace. (4th)

Today Law Jia Rong bought me a LOLI style hair clip hat that i was eyeing since last year. xDDD love her!

Jing yi treat me long john sliver. And gave me many valuable advice as a good friend.

And so... i don't want to lose her or the girlfriendss, i'll try to change but i dont wanna make empty promises.. so i cant guarentee.

Seriously... im a selfish girl.

Oh i have so many bday gifts to return... 0____0
i shudnt have copy simin and loud hailer for bday gifts. LOLLLL

xNanakax

musical

2010-01-22T23:07:00.003+08:00

okay folks... long time no post!
Anyway... class is going for breakout since its cheaper...
but hmmm i think Chicago is interesting after all... =D

Break out on the other hand looks exciting.. =D

life?

2009-12-30T21:07:00.002+08:00

Class chalet

Aloha Pool

Japancreativecentre

My dear kwanlian's christmas card.

Erm ... Pearl's Toblerone and Jing yi and me's Outing next time load lurh...

There's nothing for me to online for now.
Tons of work to rush and tons of fucktards at home to face...

xNanakax

updates

2009-12-16T21:36:00.003+08:00

Drank Coffee at wan zai with stella~ Shopping at SSC and got free ice cream from shi ying's gan ma!

Went clementi sports hall play badminton with kor kor and his colleagues

On my way home from KFC with stella

I took a shot of stella and we were studying!

A gift i made for kwanlian as birthday present!

xNanakax

<一生绝望>

2009-12-04T20:26:00.002+08:00

<小孩不笨2> 主题曲

<一生绝望>

曲/杨波词/梁智强

Verse
我们肆无忌惮我们成群结党
我们目无尊长对什么事都不满
看着我们的成长只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处你又能怎样

我们don’t give a damn那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙

学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们就告诉自己比人家强

有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望

副歌
泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望

CLEARANCE

2009-12-02T18:10:00.001+08:00

HELLO!!! BIG CLEARANCE SALE!
O Level Physics & Chemistry Learning Tru Diagram Guide Book.
Original Price: $13.90
Now Selling: $10.00
Brand New since i just bought it!
Only a few highlights here and there! Some of the things in there came out in test before.
Don't believe ask Shi Ying! xDD

2009-12-02T17:56:00.004+08:00

SEC 1
EL / SCIENCE / HISTORY
This books i think out of syllabus liao... GIVING FOR FREE. LOL >.<

COMIC BOOK. ONLY have Book 7....
Who WANT JUST TAG! HAHAHAHA
IT"S $1 LARH... LOL

Any ENQUIRERS.... PLS TAG OR MSN!
Need to see the goods PLS MEET ME AT SCHOOL. ^_______________^
CHEAP CHEAP BOOKS!
CAN BARGAIN!
SCHOOL SELL HOW MUCH... I HALF PRICE....
So Pls tell me if i sell more expensive than sch Bookshop.

x Nanaka x

2009-12-02T17:47:00.004+08:00

UPPER SEC ART BOOK AND LOWER SEC DnT BOOK

How the hell did i ended up buying art??? 0_________________0
I have never use this art book b4! nvr even highlight!
BRAND NEW!

DnT with highlights and stuff... JUST A TINY WEENY BIT!

Selling Art Book At $7
Selling DnT and $5!

SEC 1

2009-12-02T17:33:00.003+08:00

This one is sec 1 book....
Eh? out of syllabus mah?
I sell for $5!

...

2009-12-02T17:21:00.003+08:00

HUMANITIES!

History Workbook and Social Study Work Book.
I don't know how much book shop sell...
If they sell lower tell me.

Social study I oni use 2 page and less then 5 lines....
History I have Teared a couple of pages... Most probably it doesn't affect!
SELLING SOCIAL STUDY WB FOR $2!
History Work Book For $3!

CLearance SALE

2009-12-02T17:09:00.003+08:00

CHINESE BOOKS!

Don't worry! I study very Little!
Inside Damn Clean! Hahahaha
I dono bookshop sell how much...
A bit highlight here and there oso...

I'm Selling For $4! 3A And 3B Each $4 only!

Chao Shuai!

2009-11-29T21:50:00.003+08:00

Any Idea how " Flower Eat" I am Now?
>.< Lee Seon Gyun From Coffee Prince is so Hot!
The 2nd Picture guy.

Kim Jae wook is so hottttttttt too! OMG!

Lee seon gyun

Antique bakery [Korea]
2nd from your top right is jae wook!
from ur bottom left .... His Very Kawaii tOO!

x Nanaka x

Anime I've watched So far

2009-11-28T21:04:00.003+08:00

Oh~ Yo Yo Yo Yo~~~ Minna Yo~
Genki Desuka??! ^^
Today I shall share with you the anime that i have watch, going to watch, don't want to watch and hate to watch! =D
ANIME LIST
D.Gray Man checked '

BLEACH

NARUTO Checked'
Naruto Shippuden

Doremon check '
IchigoMashimaro check '
Aoi Yori Aoshi check '
My wife is a high school girl check '
Detective loki check '
DN angel check '
Myself;Yourself check '
Saiyuki/Saiyuki Reloaded Gun Lock _ check '
Saiyuki Reloaded :Burial OVA
Ouran High School Host Club Check'

Kirarin Revolution ' I abandoned it xD
Witch Hunter Robin check '
Full Metal Alchemist check'
Goshuushosama Ninomiya-kun check '
kodomo no jikan check'
Cowboy Bebop check '
Clannad CHECK'
Clannad ~ After Story Check'
Clannad Movie check '
Clannad Tomoya kyoya Check'

Okane Ga Nai OAV CHECKED'
Bamboo Blade CHECKED '

MONSTER check'
Burst Angel check'
Azumanga Daioh check'
DEATH NOTE CHECK'
[[ Vampire Knight ]] Check'
Vamipre Knight Guilty check'
Tsubasa Reservior chronicle Checked '
Jigoku shoujo 1&2 check'
Jigoku Shoujo 3 Abandon
Samurai deeper kyo Abandon
Shakugan no shana Abandon
Neo Angelique abyss Checked '
Neo Angelique Abyss ~ Second Age Checked '
Junjou Romantica 1 _ Checked' xD
Junjou Romantica 2 check '
Monochrome factor check '
Code Geass Abandon
Antique Bakery checked '
Shugo Chara Checked '
Shugo Chara Doki Deciding
Skip Beat Checked
Kirepapa checked
Tora Dora checked
Loveless checked'
Ef ~ A tale of memories checked '
Ef ~ A tale of melodies checked'
K- ON! Checked'
Kuroshitsuji Checked
Bakemonogatari checked
Gravitation checked'
Special A checked
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronical checked
Letter Bee
Miracle Train
Time Of Eve
Kimi ni Todoke
Kämpfer
Nyan Koi
Detective Academy Q

I WILL NEVER RECOGNIZED POKEMON / DIGIMON/ BEYBLADE As anime i have watched!

I am watching more than this but i can't remember all. TT

x Nanaka x

something new

2009-11-26T23:08:00.003+08:00

okay.. lets post something light so we don't have to look at all my emo post.
Yep i realized how emo my posts were!
So... THIS is my NEW confiscated phone!!
-_________________________-

Nokia 6600i slide.

This is My homework list that i grab from class blog!
Gosh~

Add~ Chinese Bao zhang Bao daO ah~

And what's more??
I cleaned my room... which i haven't finished yet.
Then I FILE all my stuff...
Which I'm still filing..
Goshhhhhh
Never ending mountain...
Well i left all the Math and General stuff to pack.
I've got to Mark all my events on the calender and print my homework list 2moro.
Phewww~ ._____________.

x Nanaka x

time

2009-11-24T14:17:00.002+08:00

It's the 2nd week of Holiday.
I still didn't touch any of my homework.

If anyone is free... mind sending me a list of what homework to do?

My new phone got confiscated.
Took only 2 days for that. Hah.
It's weird... the night before i was telling myself... there's no such good deals for me in the world.
I got too lucky... Surely my phone would be taken away soon.
And it happened.

Well... I could predict it already.
Good things always comes with a price for me.
Good things never happens to me.

Does my life deserve to be locked up so much.
No music too even cool me down.
No one to talk to huh.
Have to suffer full humiliation from sch and home...
Obey others commands as they wish.

My only function at home is to obey isn't it?
No one would let my parents vent their anger on accept their daughter.
FUCK YOU!

Close up in my room everyday.
Look at piles of books awaiting for me to clear up.
It's so messy I don't feel like studying even if i wanted.

Not treated like human at all.
They vent it on me cause they have to.
They are humans.

I can't vent it even on my bed?
I'm not human?
In their eyes, their daughter is trying to kill them?
trying to be unfilial?
Fuck You!

I'm tired of this Family.
I need to run my hearts out I guess.
Run out all my locked emotions.
I need to stop pouring complex aura to my room.

I need to be alone.

xNanakax

kill me

2009-11-21T20:17:00.002+08:00

Kill me. Kill me now.

Tell me the fastest way to die.

Tell me the most painless way to die.

Tell me the way to die without much courage needed.

Kill Me Pls.

Kill me...

I'm trash in their eyes.

So end the turmoil in me.

Kill me please.

Nanaka

Lyrics with Mixed feelings

2009-11-14T20:50:00.005+08:00

地域天堂

Song Title and Lyrics by: Wendy

看看我周边的那些人事物

我站在中央受全场人瞩目

指指点点我忍受讽刺的哭

临走前我醒悟

日夜反复提供作弄的服务

好人坏人我都已分不清楚

下一秒会不会又看他出现

恐惧是致命缺陷

(Chorus x2)

心碎的那一天我感觉什么都看不见

原来泪流满面用湿透的眼我看世界

众人要我好看我却偏不屈服不甘

我在孤独路上变坚强

不与地域过往

那是地域天堂

似恐怖分子的地方

带来艰辛悲伤不负所望

肆虐尖叫在心理重复

心理低潮仿佛像在变魔术

眼泪让我颤抖的所有那目

在恍然吃了我

悲愤悲哀悲伤悲惨的一切

情感上让我失控难以解决

成长经过被虚假模糊了我

背叛使我看清了祸

Lyrics are composed by me. And it took around 3days to write. I can't find the original instrumental so i couldn't sing it. It's original Song is Di Er Tian Tang by JJ Lin. And therefore it's all rights reserve to ocean records. The lyrics here are purely my own fan fiction.The lyrics are all rights reserve to me. Original does not have anything to do with my lyrics.

x Nanaka x

After camp

2009-11-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

Back from camp finally.
I'm so tired.
Nothing much exciting about the camp.
All very standard.

What is extraordinary was the seniors huge effort!
Thanks for helping and setting games.

Well... thank you 3 heads as well.
Overall good job everyone.

Hmm... I din't get an answer from my vice head yet.

Anyway....

I'm really annoyed at Mr NCC Cunts
And Those 3M1 malay boys.
Nasrul... and gang of Bullies!

What goes around comes around.
Didn't you guys learn moral lesson and religious study??
I guess God has waste his time on you Useless Guys!

I'm trying to keep my cool every time you guys have fun with me.
If I'm a source of entertainment...
Then I'll stop it.

I'm not going to give face.
These few week...
I have been recording in my book...
RECORDING YOUR EVERY BEHAVIOR.

Time... Place... Date... What Happened... How did it happen
EVERY SINGLE THING IS RECORDED IN MY BOOKS.

My final Weapon.

Because Holiday is near...
I wanted to collect more evidence....
So i kept quite

Next year... I am well prepared to take action.
I will report to Discipline Master.
You think my Badge is for fun?
You think I wear boy shirt for nothing?
You think Councilor is a piece of shit?!

I have all the evidence... I have all my eye witness....
Wait and see... Cunts!

Wonder how I even got so many evidence??
BECAUSE 1 DAY ... AT LEAST 2 OR MORE TIMES OF TEASING...
Go and count yourself.... How many freaking things I have recorded.

Jesus Christ have eyes.

XNanakax

THIS IS SO TRUE!

2009-11-07T18:30:00.002+08:00

If you were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are Number 1.
If you were born on the 2nd,11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are Number 2.
If you were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are Number 3.
If you were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd ,31st of any month then you are Number4.
If you were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are Number 5.
If you were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are Number 6.
If you were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are Number 7.
If you were born on the 8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are Number 8.
If you were born on the 9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are Number 9.

Number 1

You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies on a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a pioneer, independent & original your best match is 4,6,8 while a good match would be with 3,5,7

Number 2

No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a business person. You are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad vision. You make a well-balanced person. Your best match is 2, 5, and 9 no other people can put up with you !!!

Number 3

You are hard hearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You always earn respect from others. You seem to have lots of worries and problems but they won't be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom, creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & ample joy to this world!!! Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5.

Number 4

You are very stubborn, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in life, very cool and helpful. You might repel people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, as you gifted are with understanding other people's problems. If you are a girl, you excel in your studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of your time with girlfriends and you tend to have too much fun with your mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get on with their life and you will be left empty handed. So be careful! You love to spend. Your positive side is that you are always around to help family and friends. You always fall in love with those younger than you. You often live with disappointments but you will take good care of your family. You need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relationships too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a hit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order. Your best match 1, 8. Good match 5, 6, and 7

Number 5

You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships - even if you are married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good match 6, 8.

Number 6

Ooopppss.. you were born to enjoy! You don't care about others. I mean you always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But if you are a number 6 men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for everyone because you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step further.. Your best match 1, 3, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5

Number 7

You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art, singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy, you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have everything in your life but with worries throughout your life time. You need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone's joy. Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4

Number 8

You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often late), then your hard lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly- disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take you to success. You area great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your Best match 1. 4,and 8. Good match 5

Number 9

You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will think it's still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there! Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model for everyone. Your best match 3, 5, 6, and 9

Snatch this form Stella blog!

Omg!!! Damn TRUE!! Read it and u'll know!

Indeed... 2009 was a disastrous year for Many people!

Even natural disaster occur so often in 2009.... haizz

hello! Dead Blog

2009-11-07T17:22:00.004+08:00

Right now... I have no motivation in life.
How I wished I am the past me.
I used to joke a lot... happy and satisfied with just about everything.
Right now I'm exactly like a grumpy old woman.
Annoying Granny who nags a lot and always blaming on others.

This year is seriously a horrible year for me.
It's a HORRIBLE YEAR!
This year... not only did i managed to quarrel with friends many times...
I also fail to produce decent results... I fail to take care of my health...
My finances.. my duty... my family... my life... MY EVERYTHING!
I deserve to go to hell for that.

I have to change! I really NEED to change myself.
If i continue like this... I will die in future society.

That wilson and nasrul...
Think i didn't know it's them who called out dumb things...
But it's okay... i bring it upon myself.
But! but! but! I believed in Karma...
So those people out there should take care of themselves ...

I really have to learn a lot from PX.
She's really calm and quiet.
Except the scolding part...
But overall... she's someone who focus on the right thing at the right time.
I shall learn more from her..^^

Next...
I have no idea why everyone kept thinking that she's a beauty queen.
"Ohhhh all the boys loves me~~~~~"
It's not like I'm jealous...
It's just really annoying to hear these stuffs...
then create a scene and everyone starts to focus on her.
Well... It's not like she's a bad person... but sometimes it gets on my nerves though i kept quiet.
And because of her leadership and stuffs...
I find that many things she always assume that she's correct.
And for example like things "me" said or do are wrong? I mean... what's wrong with her?
Okay... things said here are only what i feel inside... it's not meant to insult you ok?
After all... your not bad at heart..

And another thing...
It took me 3 years to truly see what "another she" is...
To find out that so many people are hypocrite...
And worse... Even after i told them straight in the face.
It's even scarier to get that behavior from HER.
I mean... Peggy is so going to be soooo ShockU.

Okay... now that i know the truth...
I find that i should live a lonely life.
It's hard to find true friends... It's too easy to find hypocrite...
Well... right now i want to think the JY is different.
I won't comment on anymore...

xNanakax

Game Over.

2009-10-20T20:07:00.007+08:00

終わりです。。。

Mrs Soh wants to drop me to combine science.
Have my life ever been so dark before?
All the while my mouth just say...
"let me fail and join combine science.."
In the end i didn't have the guts to do it.
English overall pass but failed the paper.
Bull shit.

Went to Ngee Ann Poly today for engineering week.
Brandon Chong was dancing international dance with a hot chic and touching everywhere.
They all wear very little ne~
Yong guo so excited...
Keep looking out for mei nu
quote from him " oh zhe li dou shi mei nu ye~"
LOL despite ask telling him that we're going to tell simin.
He just... bu ke yi jiang pian hua o!

1 thing I learn!
It's not magic~
It's engineering!
Hehe... show you next time the magic product we brought back loh...

Hmm... I hate physics..I hate math...I suck at english...
Really lame. Just let me do either History or Chinese study in poly...
I think i'll score better. Perhaps take japanese as a module and I'll score even better.

Can I just hate the world for 1 min?
I hope I'll be able to stand after that.

蘇先生。。。ほんとに。。大嫌いです～
Gomen nasai.

x宇智波。ななかX

p.s
It's rather rude of you *"W!"* and that *guy* to speak to me like that today.
I don't even know you at all...are you sure this is the way to treat strangers?
Or are you so ill bred to this extend of not having your manners and have to speak to your fellow school mates in such absurd and harsh way...

o yea... and those ex m2-ians boys who laugh at me today.. I don't think you guys are worth even a penny to be respected. In fact... you have shame yourself.

Too fast.

2009-10-19T21:37:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow school will reopen.
Annoying... Why does holidays always pass so quickly...

Well... Went to east coast on Friday.
It's not a class outing and turns out to be just friends gathering.
But it was really fun!
Cycling was the best.
As for skating... nahh the others dont enjoy much.
I don't enjoy at first cause it's too tight.
After i changed a bigger one I'm more comfortable.
But skating is hard work. >.<

I completely don't know about tomorrow's sports camp man.
Damn... if there's consent form i would love that.

Today class outing i didn't go.
Mum don't allow.
So lazy to update blog.
Oh yeah...
The friendship thing was solved though.
Still... something was missing.
Just something.
They cried... hmmm "my tears well" have dried.
I don't think i would cry easily anymore.

Hey... i don't want to see my results.
I really hate it.
Going to ngee ann poly tomorrow.
Some seminar thingy.

haa...... how i wish my english tutor ms seah will take us for next year.
Onegai shimasu....
お願いします
gah i'm not good with japanese.. wonder if i type wrongly. >.<

never forget

2009-10-14T17:05:00.002+08:00

That last chance...
I have given and I will never forget it's condition.

Even if it meant loneliness forever.
At least I won't have to endure it.
I'm afraid of pain.
I may be selfish, however... so what if I am?
Tackling with some people,
I can only handle with care.
No one will changed to suit another...
One will only change for the better of own self.
Well... that is if they realized.

I'm changing for my self.
Fallen Angel means an angel that is no longer an angel.
Fallen Human means a human no longer a human.

Okay... a random post.
I have no idea what I'm writing.

xNanakax

I saw

2009-10-13T13:11:00.002+08:00

Ms salwaiti had an accident today.
It was outside school gate.
I think she didn't stop in time when the taxi pass by our school.
So she hit on the taxi.
She was help out from her car and sat at the sch guard post in a daze.

I was at the General office and suddenly a loud BEEP~~
Then a AHHHHH~~ scream...
That was when I look out and saw all this.
It was rather scary but thank god!
There was no BLOOD.
Ms wati just given birth,
it would be sad if the baby wasn't taken care by the mum.

Exams are finally over~
I've been really Slacky and now i don't
feel as happy as i should.
Poa was hard.
I'm sure my results would suck like hell.

Dad would throw me out of the house and i'll be grateful if he does.
He's such an annoying crap.
Even though he loves me,
he hates me too.
He could demoralized you and say you until you seem an
inhumane crappy monster.
He is my nightmare.

I'm wondering who is passerby-hamtarou.
The unknown are creepier than the known.

I shall watch bakemonogatari now.
My FrEE period in the mean time.

xUchiha Nanaka x

long lost.

2009-10-12T13:29:00.003+08:00

Long ago ... Someone was driven into insanity...
I looked into the mirror and saw my incomplete self...
I climbed out of despair and saw my shadows cast in a cage.
How long...just how long.. will i escape to that green grassland of freedom.
Free me from my shadows.

Someone text me a meaningful message:

only 10 sentences but it took me 10 min to read.

1. If between us there 1000 steps of distance,
u will only need to take the 1st step for me to walk the rest of the 999 steps to you.

2. Those who usually are willing to stay to quarrel with you are those who truly loved you.

3. Give people your sincere heart they will give you theirs in return but you might also be hurt
totally. Keeping a distance will protect yourself but it will also mean loneliness forever.

4. Sometimes it's not that he/she doesn't care about you but it's you who take he/she too seriously.

5. Friends are those who see what is in you and could still accept and like " that" you.

6. Even if it is a Believe, there will still be a Lie hiding in the middle.

7. True friendship is not about being together and having lots of common topic to talk about
but it is about being together and not feeling embarrassed even there is nothing to talk about.

8. There are no 100% of a partner but only 50% of a pair.

9. Those who are happy about "you" being sad are enemy, those who are happy about "you" being happy are friends. Those who are sad because "you" are sad are those who should keep in your heart.

10. Sometimes Cold shoulders doesn't mean heartless, it's just a tool to avoid being hurt.

10 sentences with very deep meaning in them and very meaningful as well. Read and reflect about them and you will learn many things from it.

This are the 10 sentences i received and it totally saved my life.

1 more day and I'll finish my Poa paper.
It's true that i did not study much for EOY or try as hard for Mid year.
I wouldn't expect much from my results.
I can't believed I have went through so much unfortunate events this year.
The world has also fall into disaster.

Each day I pray that it will be a better day.
My emotions eat into me.
I don't feel a sense of security.

= To someone's onsugar post.
Yes. I'm tired of quarreling.

To a few people:
When you mock at me, it only reflects how lowly you are.
If i mock at you, yes!, I'm lowly myself.

x Nanaka x

Me and my itchy fingers

2009-09-18T22:59:00.005+08:00

Hello. I can't stand my life without blogging.
These are teacher's day Pictures. ^^
Jing suan couldn't stand her own face so she scribbled it.
The teachers perform for us and today's hari raya performance
was cool. How come M3 no win? OMG.

Me super Slack.
No study at all.
Haven't touch TYS.
LMAO!
Singapore study very tedious.
Wanna Join Peggy lerh lorh.

Haizz.. Damn sian i don't know how to go on anymore.
Shall go watch Haunting Molly with Brother. -_____-
Right... now he say he scared. -.-
Watching saving private Ryan.

xNanakax

Away...

2009-09-11T12:00:00.003+08:00

oh shoot.
I just blog and things went missing. Now i have to write again.

I'm going to be away until EOY is over.
Due to my brother screaming at me.
Kay...he meant well.
But he's stressing me out.
Ok...I'm not trying...
Then I shall try now...but nobody seems to have time for me.

Naggy brother is always tired and busy.

I'm not sure if stella's blog were refering to me.
So I'm still going to wait for them to look for me.
If they are ignoring then I'll forget too.
Doesn't matter. Don't really care anyway. ;P

Won't be able to reply tag quickly.
So sorry ne~

Don't want to leave my blog viwer's hanging while I disappear,
therefore I'm here to say TATA~

Sayonara dewa matashitta~

xNanakax

road of no return

2009-09-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

Right... now it's my fault....

you expect me to go plead sorry to you?

You expected a single sorry for murdering someone's heart?

I fought with pearl too.
I fought with her today.
Jerk. Don't try to get sympathy since I'm the victim here.
This ain't a trivial matter at all.

What goes around comes around.
Heaven decide that we shall part ways.

I won't delete a contact for this.
It doesn't make sense to hate that someone.

I'm only gonna leave that person.
Hatred would only lead to more hatred.

Sorry for being selfish today pearl.
Damn sorry.

To repent, I'm letting you go.
I don't wanna tie you down anymore.
It's also tiring.

I'm gonna enjoy life.
A pity that it's not with you guys.
But the situation calls for partings.

So goodbye.

xNanakax

don't bull shit.

2009-09-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

Who was the one say "aiyah no need to wait for her la."
" put cck very below then make fun of her"

I don't want to name more of those disgusting things you talk behind my back.
Danial bin osman. Get this clear.
who was the one who talk behind my back.
Who was the one who doesn't feel at all guilty for doing this.
Who was the one who admitted" you dono meh? im always a 2 face" CREATURE
who was the one who purposely pretend nvr hear me and made me shout,
the entire civic center look at me.
AI YAH... IGNOR HER LA... LET HER BE.

Do u seriously think that i'm dumb?
You never apologized until i mention.

You even order me to wear class tee and go DDR with u
WITHOUT ASKING PROPERLY. IM NOT YOUR BITCHY DOG.
I DONT FOLLOW ORDERS FROM FRENS.

Do you have any MUTUAL RESPECT for any of your friends?
Is finding excuses for yourself all you can do?

You seriously think that i didn't sense that you always
hang with pearl and chuck me aside?

You seriously think that i'm doing this because i hate you?
Because pearl is in my class?

Your SO WRONG.

I treated you like my best friend.
Getting touch because you helped me.

But look what you did behind my back.
You bad mouth me. You Call ur self a fren?

You have nothing wrong at ALL?

Pearl felt guilty.
She came to me even though i was first to approach.
She told the truth that she really didn't wanna share.
She's in tears.

U probably wud say...
"aiyah..pearl and her fake tears again" RIGHT?

Your that type of hypocrite.
You even felt jealous at pearl becuz i forgave her.
Badmouth her on ur blog.

You scum.You scumbag.
That's why i've said i've seen your true colours.

Your're a 2 face hypocrite.
U even admitted yourself.

Why? are u gonna say..
OH DONT TRUST PEARL.

Don't worry.
I didn't talk to her until yesterday we talk for 30mins.
I'm not baised at all...

You can ask the class for prove.

Only she admitted her doings.
That i forgave her willingly.

I don't know if i trust her fully yet.
I'm just giving her last chance.

I'm not going to get myself hurt anymore.

If you have cherish any frenship before,
you wouldn't do NASTY things.

For stella.

Your also one of the hypocrite.
You only play on people feelings.
Ba zi ji de kuai le ji tuo zai bie ren de tong ku shang.
Your famous for that.
Bastared. I'm not gonna let u treat me as a toy to play with anymore.

U 2... If you try to deny and find excuses for yourself...
Go Ahead. For all ... I DONT CARE.
UR character, attitude would only lead to your own destruction.

However, compare to me... which I know my weakness and attitude problem,
I'm a step ahead of you to become a better person.

as for the hearts...
I merely forgotten abt it.
Thanks for reminding.

xNanakax

I'm not a fool anymore.

2009-09-03T15:33:00.000+08:00

I'm no longer a fool.
I'm glad that Pearl has the heart and is most different from them.

To: Danial and Stella
Don't apologized.
Stop faking around.

I trust Pearl more than I trust the backstabbers.
I know she's different.
I'm always around her.
Only angry at her ignornace and weakness against those 2.

If you have realised I'm ignoring you,
you should have realised I'm serious here.

Think that I'll forgive?
I only forgive your nonsense,
not forgive you as a friend.

You don't need to try so hard anymore.
My determination is as clear as distill water.

Sorry for being annoying.
Sorry for being extra.

Well, enough is enough.
Please don't put words into my mouth.
When did I approach you?

I only texted stella to ask the tuition day.
It was a formal text.
Merely a human being verifying things with another human being.

Don't smile at me.
Don't write to me.
Don't text me.
Don't talk to me.

I don't want to hurt you.
I don't want to hurt me.

Have you got this clear?

I'm being straightforward.

It officialy ends here.
I'm not gonna take in explanations.
I won't regret even if i wronged you,
And missed out a good friend.

No. I won't regret at all.

I thank you for giving me happy memories.
Thanks for the hallucination.

I have never beg you to forgive after that flag day.
I'm the victim. Don't put words into my mouth.

You have only made me see your true face more clearly.

A fool once.
A fool twice.
Definitely not a fool thrice.
My heart has died completely.

Now is the time to celebrate.
Finally i shall not cry over you.
Help you.
Back you up when you get bullied.
Help you out when your in trouble.

Not anymore.

xNanakax

Cuteness

2009-08-31T12:26:00.000+08:00

I need to mention something damn cute!

Flag day...
This lady wore monochrome factor's cosplay!
Akira's shin look! OMG! damn cool de lorh...
Sad there wasn't a shirogane beside if not it will be super kawaii.
Sad larh..no camera..wanna take picture with her. xD

Teacher's day today...
The teacher's!!! So CUTE!!!!!!
Ms tan had this PEACE! Then ms baey really COOL!
So many teacher's performing.
Felt sorry and guilty that thier day they had to perform for us.
All the female teacher act cute de....xD
They even dance nobody lorh!
Mimic the MV!! Wow!

Ms yap Woodland de...same as bro..
Ms jen JI wan worh..same as bro too.

Darrell play double A and Single A...
It was a Yabai performance~

I can't upload pictures now...
Haven't received it from Jing Suan yet. =(

I FORGOT TO THUMB IN!!!!!!!
OMG! SHIT!

I BioMetric defualters Leh!
Now i defaulters -__________-
Catch myself? -___-

xNanakax

Everything is so Wrong.

2009-08-29T20:01:00.002+08:00

Had Flag Day today.
I'm tired.
I'm talking about real tiredness.
Mentally and Physically.

Forever it's like this.
This never ending cycle like this are dreadful.
I'm not desperate to get hurt ever again.
There are no tsunami warnings beforehand.
They smile at you for a second and acted like they
didn't care a bit. The next minute they say they're the
judges, giving me punishment.

I have pride as a human.

I don't have to beg to join.
Stand in my shoes.
It's not natural that you want to join your besties?
I texted 2 person the night before.
They knew i were gonna come for sure.
They knew it...

My parents did object, however that does not mean
I'm not gonna finish my job.
I'm utterly confused.
What have i done to deserved this treatment.
Did we fought the night before? No...

I've mention countless times in my blog.
The same old scene everytime.
When those three are together,
there's no such thing as Wendy, Jenny or Vijitha.
When Pearl is alone with me,
we talk like besties.
When i'm with Danny and Stella only,
we are like buddies.

What exactly am i suppose to do?
Relax... take it easy...
They have gone on thier own...
I should behave myself and find my own companies...
Is that right?

I'm not part of them...
I knew from the start.
I treated them like i would love my boyfriend.
In a day time...
I have lost 3 lovers...

Again and Again...
Multiples of time...
How many times have we fought because of this?
However, I accepted and forgive and forget...
I also let in first for upteen times..
How many of that wonderful speeches have i got to hear?

It was total disappointment today
Those kind whereby my heart has broken into pieces..

The phone connection was lousy...
So you guys couldn't wait to go without me...
It's hot? Yeah...chill at causeway then...
Shiying waited faithfully there for me..
Even though she was suppose to go with helin.
She saw me alone and invite me over.

I screwed up...
Kept calling and messaging...
I fall apart...
My voice couldn't reach them..
I scream and the entire civic center could hear me.

I experience disappointment, desperateness, betrayed feelings,
all in a days time.

I am so sorry.
I am so attention seeker.
I know people talks behind you for befriending me.
I know I'm nothing but trash.

I know I'm super cry baby like right Now.

I'm dumb and I'm not cool.
I get detest by teachers and people around me.
I'm hot tempered and one day it will destroy my life.

But I'm absolutely sure of one thing.
I'm loyal. I'm straightfoward. I joke.

Pearl. You taught me to be strong.
You once said you believed I can do it. You said you would walk with me.
However, I don't think we would walk far anymore. I really hate to end this.
But that feeling everytime, it's revolting. It's penetrating my heart like a
thousand of blades everytime. Count the number of times we fought.
Count the number of time I tried to trust again.

Everytime I tried to trust again..
It takes a long time to regain it.

You didn't have to be so harsh D.
You didn't have to kept everything.

I got bullied by Jeet. Pearl sat there like nothing.
Danny got bullied by that gang, WE both stood up for him.

I wonder if could call this unrequited love.
Seriously, talk about ending it, it really hurts everyone.
But it's seriously really painful in me.
It probably wouldn't work on them anymore,
since i've said breakup like so many times.

It's okay. Distance is all i need.
The past me...
getting bullied and stuff...
Well.. I'm alone thoughout my Pri sch Yrs.
It wouldn't make a big difference now would it?
I hope I'm not to habit to them yet.

I'm truly pathatic.
I'm gonna be strong and face it.
I'm gonna form a wall in my heart.
I'm never letting anyone in.
I'm not gonna let myself get hurt again.
My heart has became thin as a paper.
Because you ate it away.

Please don't hurt me anymore.

This time.. I'm truly begging you.

I'm scared of hearing " eee! Wendy!" on the phone.
I'm afraid of reading " look who's begging to follow."
I'm petrified to played on Joke.
You knew i hated them, yet you perform a perfect performance for me.

It's The End.

xNanakax

wow

2009-08-27T00:09:00.005+08:00

OMG....THE LONG AWAITED PICS!

OMG! Blogger is like back to normal?

Like Finally!!

This is Damn Great..

I'm doing Poa..

Omg.. i wanna faint.

I got 21/30 for A. Math

That is Like so miraculous!

First time after so many farking months.

I screwed the e.math test.

Like lowest in class...14/30

Whatever...

Had physics test today... Omg...dono how to do.

I want to drop to combine science for a better life...

I want to live longer than getting screwed with pure.

I'm not that PURE in the first place. HAHA!

Oh i went to pastamania after the game with woodgrove sec.

That bitchy sec 2 girl was so cocky!

She didn't dare to play with pearl even if she's claim to be good.

LMAO! go fuck urself...so damn rude! -____________________-

I bought FRAPPE~ Mocha ^^ It was Nice!

Went home...slack then help darrell burn CD...

Now blogging... WTF!

Its Late... Time to Freaking GOOOOO~ T_____T

Farking Homework.

xNanakax

Changing Blog

2009-08-24T18:43:00.002+08:00

OKAY!! DUE TO THE FUCKING SPOIL BLOGGER...
Nanaka chan is gonna changed to LiveJournal....
So I shall Just Post the lvejournal link after i made it work. =D

Blogger Sucks

2009-08-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

Okay... It was down for awhile but now its fine..blog is back...
However the system is still so messed up like WTF?
Go die!!! -___-

blogger down

2009-08-12T15:08:00.000+08:00

Right now...my blogger is down!!!
Blogger down syndrome...
Now using blogger template...
The old template directs to some ulu places ...
-_____-
sorry!

xNanakax

Oh GOD!

2009-08-06T15:31:00.000+08:00

Hello People... as usual.. blogger can't post pics.
Fuck it la blogger. -_________-
Wonder if live journal is better? 0___0

I haven't been a good girl...
I don't finish my homework..
I slack when i have time to do something better..

Ahhh i miss PEGGY chen...... T.T
Haizz i want to visit her this coming holiday leis..

Shi ying keep bully me.. T_____T
She box me horh!
Like ms yeo's BOX YOU!
Hahaha...

Eyer... i like peggy chen le...
Don't do homework then go school copy lerh..

Got this Mr limssss
1 is B****...1 is xiao *** lian...
Hahaha... really weird mah...
So fair..like no go army..
then the other is my english teacher...
Everytime speaks Chinese like only got 1 race littat.

Fail every physics test as usual...
Fail A math like wtF
The rest of the test all just pass like that..
I don't know lah... Don't want to study...
Lost all motivation...
Can't even pursue my own favourite job...
My job scope also very limited as well...

I hope i can quickly finish o 'level
Go JC or Poly i don't care la...
Poly jiu Poly Lorh!

我看我还是写一点华文的吧！
我整天都写英文，看了都觉得无聊了!
下一页，全用华文拼！
写华文还可以骂人！哈哈哈！-____-

xNanakax

Life

2009-08-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

Oh...Life is Boring...
There's nothing but cycles...

Many haters in class recently...
I guess what happens in the past
brings to future when u don't change...

I'm not sure of my path...
I think i won't be able to cope in JCs..
However, poly is also competitive...

hmmm... blogger dont let me change font all that...
Plus cannot upload my jump shots...
Sian diao............

watching K-ON!
And i don't want to touch my homeworks..
I hate school..
Please just drop me to 3M1 ...
T________________________T

xNanakax

Apology

2009-07-24T00:41:00.004+08:00

I have wrote an apology letter to him.
Were both suppose to write one.
I don't want to quarrel anymore.
I just want him to stop bothering me.
Forgive and Forget is what I'm going to do.

This are the pictures We took for the last meeting with Peggy!
Me and Jing Yi said Good bye to her with sweet memories =D

Lost

2009-07-16T14:58:00.002+08:00

I'm such a lost kid now.
I don't know how to tackle Iswarjeet's insults anymore.
I feel frustrated, how come I'm always getting bullied.
How come there's no justice done at all?
After all the mean things he did to people...
How come he could still get away free like nobody's business?

How come non of my friends stood up for me
or are willing to stood up for me?
How come the class must always let Jeet win all the insults he done?
How come society doesn't look down on this sort of bastard?

Sometimes i really feel like dieing.
Really feel like slapping his face.
My hands almost moves before i could catch it.
I didn't insult him anymore.
But it was multiple insults today by him.
Even after school i had to get insults by him at the coffee shop.
If there were food on his table i would have really throw it at his face.
And Danial who looks matured actually joined him.

Then the 3 people has this stinky reputation recognized by teachers.
They have no shame at all?
Do they enjoy bullying and teasing so much?
I'm glad Darrell didn't hang out with Jeet anymore.

I think because of those bullying ...
I'm slowly developing suicidal thoughts.
His is such kind of scary people who could force
his victim to do anything unimaginable.

I don't think i can hold out any longer.
I'm sorry to 3M3.
They have been enduring my fights with that bastard.
I think i shall end it all soon...
Exactly what HE wants....
Die in front of him.
I would rather die than take anymore Humiliation.
I'm also a human with pride and dignity.
I also want to be friendly with him.
But i can't... he only picks on me.....
I'm like his source of entertainment...
And to stop all this...
The solution is to stop the entertainment....
Plug out the electric cable is the best solution...

For the time being... i shall stay quiet.
And if I'm going to die....
I'm going to die in front of him and the other 2 guys...
I'll haunt him even in my after life....

Remember Jeet~
I will never forget things~

How pathatic

2009-07-10T22:32:00.002+08:00

Volunteered as in i only ask the class if they want a blog?
And Ms Hana said " Let's have a blog!"
And i was ask to be in charge?

Okay.. some taggers are just so unfriendly.
They don't read Signs!

I did left there...
" If you hate hatred post the please don't read,
Then later hate me for LIFE..."

Oh c'mon! Are they still 3years old or Something?
My age and my blog doesn't have censorship like
no "FUCK" Word okay?
Aren't big enough to accept this 21th century
common language?

Jesus....

Made podcast today...
When out with Peggy and Jing Yi
in the evening and took damn many pictures.
Peggy wore super tall heels and she's still
shorter than me and Jing Yi! Haha...

Okay... Those who hate me should stop coming to
my blog anyway.
What's the point of reading someones blog when
you hate that person?
You won't enjoy blog hopping here right?

To the class... I'm sorry to those who had
contributed to the class...
I'm not scolding you guys...
Only criticizing those who doesn't want to vote.

ciao~

xNanaka

Im a fucktard

2009-07-07T15:08:00.006+08:00

If You Don't like to read hatred post,
Please don't highlight and read then come
and hate me for the rest of your life.
* SPOILER*

Yeah. Came back from school straight.
I can't stand the stupid crowd.
I came into sec3M3 full of high hopes.
Full of gusto spirit.

Through Many attempts of my BLODDY effort,
I finally realized I'm just an EXTRA FARKTARD in class.
Why the hell did i set up the class blog for?
I ask people around me...they are 3mians...
For god sake... They were the ones who said
"oh! finally a class blog!"

OH RIGHT!!!!
FUCK YOU!

I spent several night, frustrating
of this bloody hard to align blog...
Making accounts and stuff...
Then i have to manage my homework..

You say you were not online...
Ms hana had reminded you of the closing date FUCKER
It will only take at most 10 mins to vote.
I didn't ask for your bloody life SUCKER

Compared to your time to VOTE and MY TIME to MAKE!

I like sing doller.
I really like it.
But it's singlish...
Im Sick of exposing to singlish everyday...
things like MEH MA FUCK YOU!
You dono all this stuff MEH????

Where else JUMP is Korean MOST FAMOUS
DANCE GROUP!
Ever watched LI XIN YU?
WU CHU XIN SI?
舞出芯思?
Even her went to learn with JUMP.

Even channel news asia featured JUMP.
Its foreign exposure!

You guys don't even deserved to vote!

If you are as passionate as DANIAL
I WILL BLOODY SHUT MY MOUTH!
But you guys just judge a book by its cover!
You guys just want the easy way out!
You guys are lazy BASTARD!
STUDY LIKE CRAP NERDS

Look at yourself!
You guys are the kind of people that
will end up getting BASHED on
WALLSTREET AMERICA!

If you are passionate!
You won't not vote and choose the easy way out!
I hope THIS THING COST $1000000000000000!

I WILL STAND THERE AND CLAP MY HANDS
BLOODY FUCKERS!!
FUCKTARS From 3M3!

I'm SO BLOODY extra for setting class blog!
I shouldn't have set it!
Look at YOUR APATHETIC FACE! BITCHES!

And do you even CARED about CLASS ROOM
PAINTING????
LOOK AT MY EFFORTS! SUCKERS! CBCBCB!

I shall wash my hands off these Irresponsible Crap!
Who likes to make use of each other and study like nerds!
I initially loves 3M3.
Now you have developed my hatred and it's all thanks to YOU!

Last advice:

GET A LIFE! BITCH!

DDR

2009-06-29T01:26:00.003+08:00

Ps oni this one in jpeg form...
the rest lala no help convert TMD! haha xD
Wonder girls pose VVV

DDR DDR DDR DDR DDR!!!!!

RAWR~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Went with lala and dan ytd!

OMG!! ADDICTED sia!

Forever DDR!

I want to play again!

I want to buy the mat siol!

Took Some Pics =D

-_________-

2009-06-23T18:42:00.003+08:00

Hello guys...
What should i do when you can't finish the damn homework?
I shall just rot. D=
Anyway, i was at Danial's house yesterday.
Pearl was with me.
Damn many cockroach at his block siol.
we scream like crazy bitches and running for our lives too.
It was so hilarious when i recall about the cockroach thing.

I was suppose to choose cloths.
But those cloths ended up babies size.
We managed to choose some for pearlie brother!
Hahahaha...

We ate maggie noodle...curry flavour.
We watch naruto of that freaking old ep 77....
we watch stuff that we weren't suppose to watch
and this freak me out.
I think this world is just about
MONEY! POWER! SEX! FAME!
I feel that the world we lived in are so dirty and scheming
and tainted. Humans are such realistic animals...
We have wasted our brains.
We did things not for earth's better, not for others better
but for our own benefits.

Hmmm... regarding my life....
Friends....
I guess i still hate her attitude in the end.
That apathetic attitude and the pick on Wendy attitude.
She isn't her old self anymore i guess...
So no point really taking note of her..
She's not bad, she's not doing anything wrong to me recently.
Because we hasn't met.
It's really tough trying to keep this up.
Like when 3 people hang out...
I'm always walking behind them.
I tried to squeeze in though, but it doesn't work.
Even when hanging out with Pearl and another fella,
same things happen.
Is the path too small?
i don't like to walk behind or pushed behind.
I want to walk and talk with you guys.

It's really tiring and i wish to end this...

What the hell is wrong with my father.
Must he knock so loudly to scare me.
CHEE BYE! FUCKER! GO DIE LA! IDIOT!

ss501

2009-06-17T03:53:00.007+08:00

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DECEMBER! whoohoo this is crazy~
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last post

2009-06-14T14:59:00.002+08:00

hello people...
this is going to be the last post this month...i guess
since i need to concentrate on homework.
I've been fooling on the 1st week.
Doing painting on the second week.
3rd week shall be project week+ homework.
4th week will be revision+homework+play... haha
went to play DDR with dan and lala yesterday...
English teacher never come mah...
So go walk walk liao haha...
It was raining on the way home...
they wanted to take a picture of lonely girl standing in the rain
Both of them immediately call me go lorh -_____-
okay..the picture on another computer...can't upload...
too bad....bro says it's artistic! lol

.____.

2009-06-10T07:35:00.002+08:00

After this post...
I'll have to wash up and go school le...
Have to do classroom painting...

wake up early print stuff...
ahhh... mood so dull now...
i love the We Got Married show...
So funny... ^___^ hyun joong X hwangbo...
right ....

classroom painting...
CLASS! don't ever complain of wad we put up...
because you all never raise your hand the 1st time
teacher ask about it .... and the many times after....
-_______________________________-

xNanakax

Why?

2009-06-07T07:58:00.003+08:00

Why i ignore U?
Because it always turn out my fault...
when u don't do things that I'll expected..
Don't ask...i feel strange just being angry for this..

I told Danial and lala...
i don't feel like talking to them eh..
suddenly i just feel like being alone..
I guess that's wad Aquarius are made for...

Now i'm super angry with KOREAN shows...
I thought boys over flowers was shit at first..
I went to see in curious...
I fell for it...Although i know all the character..
Had Their NOSE Made..ma by cheek bone too.. T.T
But i fell for Ji Hoo at first sight..KYAA~~
Then i happily chiong till ep 8...
finds it boring...went to check out ending...
FUCK LAH!! CCB!!!

Spoiler!*******

That ugly JUN PYO!!!
Got JAN DI LO!!!

******** Spoiler!
Can you believed it?
It's so absurd...
I should have known that his face so big...
surely he'll win..i still thought my Ji Hoo win...
I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ANGRY!
I'll STOP the show!
And instead of watching show...
I'll go after SS501! Hyun joong band...
okok... i'm upset with their coupling for SS501!
For wad u anyhow couple boys -_____-
Don't make me sick like this...

xNanakax

Ahahahahahahaha KYAAA

TMD

2009-06-05T17:16:00.004+08:00

CCB LA!
Fucked Up fuckers Fuck OFF

Lala 不讲信用....
Someone in camp keep talking behind me...
Hello!!!???
Nabil daRnial Darrell All my Besties la!
Cannot meh... just because u are flirty with boys...
Doesn't mean i am like you.....go over the other side
talk to Darrell means flirt right?!

Dortzzz...
Went to facilitate the councillor excos yesterday...
so i was camping in school yesterday...
I tell you horh....
In school....i will never go hungry....
We eat good food u noe....
i come home no lunch eat bisket lurh...
zhao zhi dao i stay there for lunch then come home..
But the camp is quite fun le..actually...
got the maze! Whoo hoo..MISTY MOUNTAIN...
hahaha...throw water bomb at them....

Felt guilty for pouring entire bucket at darrell...
he no bring shoe no bring slping bag no bring extra shirt...
He live just like a homeless man...HAHA
Then i borrow him my extra pe shirt...
He better wash VERY VERY clean...
His family history so scary....
I get frightened just listening to that few stories.
DAMN SCARY...
Jing Suan was like...
TELL ME LEH!!! Haha
Jing Suan no morning .... night.....
Got handphone mah...
Then Keep talking stuffs like BK....and ME...
She's so *horny*

Definiation by Mr tay...
Horny*- always thinking of sex...
hahaha Jing suan go ask Mr Tay what is
horny siol...LOL!!! xD

My Darnial boy became thier topic...
I hear le so angry...
Discussion say 1 time then let it be la...
Must even eating time talk about it meh...
Insult my danial...
I AM SO GOING TO TELL HIM...
Wah lau...u all keep say he weird...
Kuniang... -______-
I don't see you very MAN either wad...-__-
Worse say he gay in front of me some more...
That is call... talking behind others back....EXCOS!

xNanakax

shop my 1st time

2009-06-02T20:55:00.006+08:00

HOHOHO!!
I HAD MY 1st time WITH LALA TODAY!
Yeah..window shopping today...
hooooohahahahahahah....

yep...wore hot short...
wore those prom night dress...
lol miss lim miss baey mrs tan mrs karen ong....
i think their cloths all can be found at THIS FASHION!

Okay....Picture TIME!
dont be shock to see me in weird dress K!
Once in a life time niaaaaaa....
And we became STALKER -TAN
went daiso see all kinds of stuff....
DRESS LIKE AUNTY OMIGWAD
I wanna come out again! Yeah xD

xNanakax

Quick one

2009-05-30T13:00:00.001+08:00

Okay..quick post ah...
Going tuition liao...

Happy Birthday Blog!
30/5/08 - 30/5/09

1 year old lerh..<3 love euu

My blog can use liao..
perfect liao tq stella<3

Happy 1 year old BLOG!

2009-05-29T20:53:00.001+08:00

OMG... i just realised 2moro will be 1 year annivasary
of my blog opening!!

Happy EARLY Birthday BloG!

Blog

2009-05-29T19:34:00.002+08:00

Halo halo... my blog mia awhile ...
okok....now still cannot link....
base code keee siaoooo

sadsadsad...
kk...i lock my blog very long liao...
no music cuz it will direct to other pg when pressed.

ahhh... jus finishing editing some JIA CHENG
chinese compo...puke half of my dinner liao...
HCL somemore ...never mind...i kind enough
to get killed before the teacher....

sad lerh my blog so half done...
but don't open everyone will
kill me...lock too long le...

The entire period no one was allowed in..
haha..so deserted.....................

xNanakax

Back to Life

2009-05-22T20:08:00.002+08:00

Yes...everyone....
back to life....
Study study study....
No Audi....
Less Anime....
Less active....

Just study....
I deserve it anyway...
4 C6 2 C5 1 B3 1 D7...
A fucktard result would excel better...
I won't ever bloody stay in sch with ppl anymore...
I'll just be selfish to keep everything to myself...
If you hate selfish fucktard then so be it...
I shall stay at home...
Though i would probably slack more....

No matter how hard i try it would be meaningless..
Worst if i didn't try... well that doesn't matter...

I shall say my piece Y*****...
You are my superior...
I respect you as my superior when
doing duties..
So if you tell me to stop asking for early
dismissal... i will do as you say...
Your wish is my command when
i'm carrying out duties... =] got it?

Now... whether you dislike me or not...
That's personal matter...
Nothing to do with duty wise stuff...
You say you don't dislike me...
that's great news...
But you never say you like me either...
But it's okay...
Because even if u don't dislike me...
I don't really care...
because i dislike you... got it?
I'm trying to be really clear here =)
And also THE one beside you...
which you once said you dislike ...
I don't like her too...

I don't like vague people...
After reading this...
you can hate me for being straight...
But i only respect people who are worth
to be respected...
And you are my leader so i respect you...
After i took of that badge...
It will depends whether i respect you or not...

But that doesn't matter right?
井水不犯河水...
Hope you stay cool about
me being so straight...

We should always draw
the line clearly between work and personal... =)

...Nanaka...

Distance

2009-05-18T19:55:00.010+08:00

Almost 3 weeks...
For goodness sake...almost 1.5 month of leave...
What on earth has happened?
I can't believe i'm still alive after that long of parting...
I can only say i miss that person...a lot alot...
No other special meaning but i hate explaining...
So this will be in the smallest font...
I miss my A/E math TEACHER....
Come back to us pls!

It's so sad...i'm feeling depress already...
Seriously... many mix feelings within me...
Gosh....

Physics MCQ 22/30
Chemistry 51.5 c6
Chinese 70 A2

I am seriously not happy at all with all the results!
I studied entire week for Chemistry hoping for a B3...
Fuck MT... I've been aiming for A1
Physics fail for sure! Paper 2 die cuz got 9 ppl fail physics!

E.math also a number of failure...
Don't expect much for A.math either...
What have i been doing the pass 4 month and 18 days???

Ms Yeo gave us whole bunch of sec 2 work to do...
It seems so mocking but i did it quietly...
Don't treat us like ur sec2's at least give us some
challenging sec2 question...
Anyway... u say the class quiet ....
Than u give so many work.... than wanna talk to us...
Are we suppose to like multi task...
finish ur work and entertain u?

Although u are really funny and entertaining la...
It's appreciated....really...

however...
I WANT MY MATH TEACHER/ FORM TEACHER BACK!!!!

Mrs Anshad is standing in to be our form teacher temporary...
Know hell ghost knows what happen to him....
Nobody is going to tell...
I don't want to know...
I just hope he come back soon...

BECAUSE I DON'T WANT Ms ONG....
Ahhhhhhh!!
She very fierce + don't like me ever since the
mia musica thingy...
Like cannot forgive...
So damn it when i hear she our A.Math teacher....
I don't want to face her de she will make my life difficult!

MR CHEW!!!! PLS COME BACK BAH!!!
I RATHER DIE IN YOUR HANDS THAN
DIE IN THEIR HANDS!

At least you're so much kinder than them...

xNanakax

p.s dont pao toh me than complain me horh...

now i'm bored

2009-05-09T16:26:00.002+08:00

Hey people...
Guess what?
PapaChew is sick...
haha...curse him la...
who ask him set A math paper till so hard...
Make me cry after the bloody paper...
I got Study okay! It's i noe the formula okay!
But i dono how to solve lorh!!
Make till so hard!
Kill all of us!
Bloody YOU LAH....

Peggy went to shopping spree with He Lin liao...
Sian diao... xD kanebo body lotion... hahahaha...
I slacking yesterday... Today also slack...
Tomorrow go study with Stella, Danial and Norish ~
I Haven't study for e. Math lorh....
And POA too... so sian....
After exam sure very boring de...
Don't say after exam... now i also feel bored...

He sick so many bloody days...
many people curse him get swine flu lorh...HAHA
Then The SEGAR oso...
E.math set so many lower sec question!
Then we all no study lower sec stuff!!
Make us fail....I Segar u than u noe lorh...
Lol vijita oso Many Segar... haha...

The Lamda Family...
Nabil Lamda
Pearl Marie Lamda
Vijita Many Lamda
Jenny Lamda
Stellamda
Danialamda
Wendylamda

LOL Lamda...= wavelength
we wave length and travels like this ~ ~
~ ~
~ ~
xDD

Typical Slackers

2009-04-30T21:36:00.003+08:00

Chinese Paper Yesterday...
I did the wrong essay....

Today English paper...hm mm
seems easy....I'm sure I'll flunk -___-...

Today 周爸爸 talk to me...
Because of Mrs Ng lorh...
Her way of talking is really.....
unique i guess....
I was scared out the shit when she say until like that.
Make me feel so guilty for holding Ms Tan back...
Then i cried...both teacher said i too Stress...
Okay la... maby a little to stressed up...
It's not the first exam... but the subject are definitely new...
and also heavier... and there's like so many bullshit mixed
feeling within me...

Tell me how to forget things like deleting stuff in computer...
Haizzzz........ Life is boring......
I slept till now since 7pm....it's like 9.45pm now....
I am not motivated at all this Mid year....
No sense of urgency yet....
Can Someone help me out?
Bring out that panic within me... T.T

I'm slacking like it's nobody's business now...
Nobody is willing to tag me a shit....

I'm really so pathetic....
I pity myself.... =x

Li Xiang Qing Ren
穿上洋装看着手表
时间快到心碰碰地跳
和你的第一次约会来临了
金色的阳光洒满人行道
换了新唇膏把头发弄好
要你看到我的好
喜欢看你走路充满自信
说话时候你的专注眼神
温柔的表情笑容里的天真
我相信
找不到有比你更好的人
你心里理想情人是几分
是否也会有我的份
好想知道
你的一百分会给怎样的人
亲爱的你
不要再陌生
增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你
把感情升等
朋友变成情人
可不可以告诉我标准
不要(让)我一直等
听着那时间滴答地走
对街的你在点头
好像一个梦
渐渐走到我的前头

This song has 写出我的心声。

My bloody mood

2009-04-24T21:39:00.002+08:00

Hey guys...
I got 16/25 for English test...
I'm a little not satisfied...since other class got 20/30...
But I'm pleased with my speedy recovery...

Played Tarot again...
So accurate...
I gave up that idea soon after i knew the result..
It's obvious anyway...
My 6th sense is a bit strong...
If i feel something in a strong way...
Sometimes it really happens...
But mostly only apply to negative stuff...

My Horoscope is the best to become Tarot master...
Means like helping people to find it out...
I would probably learn during the holidays...

Language used to be my enemy...
But now I'm scoring well for it...

I ask Tarot about my character...
It says I'm super hot tempered person...
No patients....
Feel lonely at times...
Lack of confidence....
A very very negative and dark person...
People would not know what I'm thinking...

Yep... it's all correct...
No wonder even i also feel i'm hard to mix with...
I'm sorry to those i messed with....
I'm not sorry to those who messed with me...
I'm really emo now...

I also asked Tarot when's my next chance? [love]
It said... July to august...
That guy would be responsible...
Hardworking...
Mature....
Patients....
yep .... criteria met....
but i may not know it's him and he may not know it's me...
I may miss the chance with him...
Well... whatever........

Of course I've ask about the bear thing...
It said Impossible....
Well.... it's all predicted by my 6th sense...
now i shall give up totally and study hard....
But it's a little hard to get over...
With nothing to think of now....
I need something else to distract me...
Study is the worst...
Therefore I'll need anime again i guess...
I wonder why there is no tears....
Perhaps I'm prepared....
Perhaps It's because i knew it's another silly crush...
My hormones are doing me weird...

Lastly... I love My friends....
I don't need unnecessary distraction...
友情万岁！
读书必胜！

x Nanaka x

I don't need this kind of "friends"

2009-04-17T18:27:00.003+08:00

It's been 2 days since i cut my ties with Stella.
I haven't bring it up to Danial...though i know he knew.
I am someone who loves to joke.
Someone who is super duper loyal.
Once a friend, always a friend.

Lets talk about my past...
In primary 1, i'm a bossy girl.
Because of that, i got bullied by the class.
I was force to quit a grp leader job and was super upset.
Because i hate being bullied, i often rebel.

In primary 2, i had lots of rival and nobody likes me.
As usual, being bullied on the m'sian bus.
I didn't had true friends, didn't knew what was friends.

In primary 3, worst nightmare came.
There's this bitchy teacher Ms Yan.
She bullied me. I did lousy for spelling,
she scolded me so harshly, i cried,
i scolded her back because she kept saying i didnt try.
She slaps me for everything i did badly and sometimes
pulls my hair when i scold her behind her back secretly.
She knew i scold her cuz of my so called " friends"...
They betrayed me...to get dote by her....
She ask us to help her run errands...buy coffee and stuffs...
She ask us to massage for her...and she especially
likes my massaging skills...
English lesson is to listen to her bitchy pop songs...
When we score well, she says it's becuz she let us
listen to english songs...She demoralised me...
Few of the boys were also victims...
We all got slap for nothing...

But my chinese teacher was good to me.
She realised i had many problems.
She often talks to me.
And i'm greatful to her.
She's Ms Wong. =]

In Primary 4, almost whole class dislike me.
I became really rebellious...
I had deep hatred with other people.
I had bad relation with family.
I often got cane by parents.
I hurt myself by biting myself.
I vent anger and sadness through
biting myself. Never once had i shared it with my family.
My chinese teacher always called up my mum.
My form teacher got kind of fed up with me.
I always got con by "friends".
My teacher had to keep a dairy with me,
to understand more about me.
She is Mrs siva. The best teacher =]
Until i met kwanlian.
She was also friendless.
I began hanging out with her.
And the only one i hang out with.
When people bully her, i bully them.
She was just like me.
But she don't betray me.
She's still my friend till now.
The first person who made me
believed there's true friendship.

Primary 5, i began to slowly open up.
However, bullying didn't stop.
I made some friends...
But no one can replace kwanlian.

Primary 6, i'm more or less recovering.
However, i'm still biting myself in the room
when i'm sad. Many times, there's blood.
Parents didn't realised. I'm still getting bullied.
People pull my hair.

Sec1, i'm still having problems.
Couldn't adapt life.
Couldn't accept betrayal...
Therefore very sensitive...
Wouldn't let my friend go...
That's why she's suffuring...
I was upset...
i became addicted to anime.
It help me understand life through stories.
I began to trust my friends...
I let them go and taste the truth themselves.
However, bullying didn't stop either.

Sec 2, bullying didn't happen too often neither had it stop.
I had a bunch of good friends...
They stand the same as kwanlian.
I couldn't tell you how much there're cherished
I stop biting myself as well...

Sec 3, though different class. i still love them.
But bullying didn't stop. That's fine.
But my own friends are the problem.
I got more and more terrified and angry at them.
Thier JOKEs, teasing were constantly happening lately.
I don't like it. It reminds me of the past...
While typing, i'm sobbing...
They remind me of betrayal from friends in the past and
mocking by my friends in the past...
I don't like being look down by them.
I don't like being make fun of...
I want them to listen to what i have to say,
when i listen to what they say too..

They say i Couldn't take jokes...
They say i need stuff like that to grow up...
But can you tell me, how much of jokes and mocking
must i take now to grow up?
Haven't i take in enough?
What is the limit to couldn't take joke?
YOU TELL ME HOW MANY MORE
OF YOUR JOKES DO I NEED TO TAKE?
Have You try to understand me at least this little bit?
Do you know why i cut my ties with you?
I don't want to get betrayed and mock again...
ITS HORRIFYING at thought....
If other people bully me, i don't mind....
But YOU ARE MY FRIENDS.......

Why Can't you try and understand a little.
I don't deny i JOKE at times....
But i don't bombard you with it unless you
also tease me...
I'm not your entertainment or a clown...
I don't look funny...

Why can't you just tell me...
"I won't tease you so much again" ?
All i'm asking for is that sentence...
I'm not asking you to change for me...
I'm asking you to accept me...
I accept that you guys are like that...
But i cannot accept you mocking me...
I don't like to get look down...
You give me that feeling everytime
as if i'm a dumb ass...

Noob! Auntie! chicken!
many times i want to scream
" WHAT IS FUCKING WRONG WITH YOU!!!"

Do you understand now why i cut my ties?
It's in my background... my experience...
Don't tell me you understand much...
You don't have my background....
You didn't try to find out from me why...
Are you telling me you don't care?
You don't cherish this friendship?
so am i right to say...
I've got CON again?
It's all illusion afterall???

Sometimes i am in badmood...
I am angry....Yes...
Do you think i have a good foundation of controlling anger?
I'm sorry that i vent anger on you though i can't help it at times...
I believed i shall bite myself the next time i'm angry...
Or i had already started biting anyway...
Biting myself is a punishment for myself...
i know i always leaks secret out...
i'm sorry... i admit i'm no good in keeping secrets...
however i am learning to... slowly .. so give me time...

If you think this friendship is worth saving,
i hope you reflect a little just like i am reflecting myself now.

I don't need friends to bully me, mock me...
I need friends who care about me...
Share my happiness and woes...
Love me and help me when i'm in trouble...
Correct me when i'm Wrong...
Listen to what i have to say,
i'm a good listener so i will listen to you...
I want your trust and i want to trust you...

I love you... but do you love me?

::Nanaka::

I'm Sick

2009-04-11T12:36:00.003+08:00

Great... news...

I'm sick... so sick that i could doze off any moment...

I caught a damn flu... ARGH

Couldn't concentrate on my studies...

Kept feeling drowsy...

Did everything except A.Math...

My brother drew a pig head and wrote

" o hmwk p homwk" on my exam schedule...

I owe him chapter 3 and 4 misellaneous +

Exercise .... Like so LMAO....

Then A. Math worksheet... see 1 time wanna

doze off liao.... sian... then still need study

e.math test and a. math test...

So tired......

I use photoshop cs4 to edit photo journalism pic...

see>>>

Inspirational right?? Muahahahaha xDD

Omg~~~

2009-04-09T19:20:00.005+08:00

Halo everyone~
It's been long since i updated...

oh...and CHER~ pls scroll down to 17 march post to read...xD
well...u are free to read other post too...xDDD

My useful phrases for last week was...

"I shouldn't have lied to her..."
"Now she's dumping me... an icy dose of my own medicine"
"I went into a bar and chose a window seat."
" I look at the sky and acknowledge with a modicum of interest"
"Suddenly, the darkening clouds gave birth to billions of raindrops."
"A drunken man approached me and wanted to find trouble."
"I was at a lousy mood, therefore reluctant to cause a stir."
"The bartender saw what was happening so he was trying to smooth feathers."
"In the end i walk out of the bar safely."

Okay... now talk about fun things...
I got the exam schedule...
like dotz...2 subject per day...lame...

I played tarots...ytd...and today...
Ytd was totally good cards...
today was totally opposite...
awwsss...

I offered to teach gerald history and chinese since i'm
a history student and my chinese is good...
i mean lower sec chinese is damn easy...

Last week, yong guo and i went to shiying place to do ved...
Shiying mum was so good... she bought us pizza^^
Our product was satisfying except i don't
understand why YG insisted to put that
fat ugly baby in...

It was a hectic week...
Mr chew keep saying he never see me after sch anymore...
when i'm just right behind or infront of him....studying...
i very guai de hor....
then bro say he got many GAN ER ZI...
so i wan be Gan Nu Er...but haha..
he male la...cannot...
but anyway..everyone secretly call him
papaChew de lorh...

Bro go complain to MISSY LIM siol...
Say i very stressssssssss....lol
ok la... stress...
i skip many badminton training...
but i used the time to study and catch up ok...
i finish my work...and if not i make sure i still hand in
on that same day...

I have fianally finalized what career i want...
I'm going to be a teacher...
So i can poke into students business...
haha no la... so i can shower them
with all my love too ... xD

I like "kids..."= lower primary
however i wan teach in secondary school...
caused i don't want to handle minor stuff...
NIAN QING REN YOU HUO LI...
secondary more QING CHUN YANG YI...
haha...

hmmm...history how to teach sia?
Just memorized...very hard meh?
No need to understand la...

Chinese... listen more cl songs la....
watch TV...become natural lo...
especially SHI DIAN XIN WEN...
tell you to listen and speak...
never ask you to write and read lo...
read is only for girls...
caused they read LOVE NOVEL...
haha but i like magic novel more...
though i read love novel too...

ARGHH
my cl dictionary the screen broke!
Just bought last week sia!
KNN LURH... T.T
so dumb...
now i dunu exam HOW liao...0_0
Help!!!!!!! If no electronic dictionary...
my writing speed sure slow de...
than sure cannot finish...
than sure anyhow write le!

sian... ok... now see pictures and relax...
i'm gonna show u the pictures and also how i look in specs^^

x Nanaka x

Pro right?

lol...he hug the dog

He looks like dog...

Hee hee hee hee...

The dog looks cool eh?

p.s Cheer chen so bu hao kan!
Face so rough... -___-
Mr chew still say pretty...dotzzz

The weeks

2009-03-28T19:28:00.002+08:00

Yay...i got all band 1 for all English component.
Its like so unbelievable to me...

I made up a story for English tuition dictation...
okay... dictation sounds lame but we learn useful phrases...

Here's the story...

There was once a boy call Jone.
He had a crush on a girl call Genie.
Whenever he saw this girl, his hands
would be jittery with nerves.
One day, he finally had that growing confidence
to confess to Genie.
Genie accepted him and he can barely contain his excitement.
His delights were infectious as the entire crowd were happy for him.
And so, a chain of fortuitous event begins to unfold.

The next story, i would need to make up something really hard.
They all seems to not link at all.

Anyway... saw nino today...
he was to relief our e.math class...
hehe...we made lots of jokes ...

Tomorrow i'll need to go 掃墓.
So... tonight must finish at least half of my homework...
Alright guys...remember today has earth hour yeah?
8.30pm to 9.30pm... help save our Earth! =)

Bye bye~

xNanakax

science center trip

2009-03-28T19:14:00.006+08:00

Hello everyone... I went to science center trip last Thursday. It was kind of lame...haha ... Nabil was so cute... check out the pictures i took by using nabil's phone.
NABIL SOOO CUTE!

SGH Museum

2009-03-18T11:11:00.004+08:00

Yay...
I went to SGH museum yesterday!
Okay...i went to acompany my mum for her surgery...
while waiting for that few hours, my naggy bro and 3rd bro
went to housemen canteen for breakfast+lunch...
Food there very cheap...
Many doctors bring along thier "ting tong"
i wonder if they are gonna listen to patients heartbeat
while having thier mee siam or chicken rice? LOL
Then naggy bro say it's zhai nan canteen
because its call "HOUSE" "men" canteen mah..xD
zzz...he drew on my foolscap pad...lmao siol...

then the day surgery clinic...outside got 1 notice...
it's call inpatient pharmacy...
i was so tempted to use marker and changed the n
to m... lolsssssss

after that...naggy bro bring us to SGH museum
Singapore General Hospital Musuem...
So damn cool man! NUS is a 100th years old...
After raffles came... it was name king edward 7 school i think...
It started out as a medical school xD
what freaks me is...benjamin shears is a gyneologist
FU CHAN KE LAH!! xDDDDDD

Then you get to see the medical instrument in the past...
What happen to SGH during japanese occupation...
Where all the old doctors came from?
That nus school lah...

Last time m'sia and s'pore merge rite?
It became malaya medical school ...i think...
Then mahatir and hs wife both grad there de lorh...
strictly speaking...he is my brother senior...
though we don't give a shit abt that...haha...

I saw a japanese flag full with those loser soildiers signature siol...
the most simple one i remember is call what" xiao lin gao"
Lmao...then he dao di shi xiao(small) hai shi gao(tall)??
those are soldiers who fought us that time...
the flag made of silk... 1st time see real past jap flag!
than got 1 british flag...here burn 1 hole there burn 1 hole...
chey.... xDD
so sad sia... level 2 reconstuction...
if not can stay whole day also not sian de...

Then we wanted to go to the mortuary...
Those frozen body .... yuck
But we 3 ppl...ltr odd 1 out...they add 1 more
for you then die...xDD
the short cut there u need to passby the mortuary...
The lift and place there ...bro say always got a smell...
no one dare to take the lift or walk pass the area alone..
scary right? but we didn't go in the end... no balls mah xD

tay syndrome...
haha...some illness discover by "i 4 got who"
lol i go there than 4get all the shit....

okay... got to go remedial...
bye bye!

xNanakax

selfishness

2009-03-17T22:09:00.002+08:00

You are selfish...
You don't care how i feel...
you only care how you feel...
you won't consider the consequences and how it may
affect or disturb me if you say those words to me...
All you know is that you love me...
But you don't care if i hate you...
You bring inconveniences to me..
strictly speaking... you are a burden!
Annoying and selfish...

No matter how hard i try to tell you nicely...
i tried not to hurt you...
but you are so persistent...
It's ANNOYING!
If you don't have friends...
don't make it like its my fault...
Don't blame others for betraying you...
because you have betray them as well...
You didn't help them...
They hack you? so what?
Rather than having all the time gaming...
those electric bill are more worth than your MESOS...
Those bills can help lessen your parents finances...
If only you would play less...

Silly crushes at such a age...
c'mon...i'm also a teen...
such silly feelings...i can understand...
Don't you know all these feelings are virtual?
They are not reality...
Face the truth...
If you are mature enough...
You will think more of your future rather than keep
saying you like me SELFISHLY!

Moreover you don't keep your promises...
You said you will not message me unnecessarily..
you're a liar... i knew it...i should not give you my number...
But i trust you...cause you said you are mature...
But you abuse my trust...

I don't have that "liking" towards you...
Please stop causing me trouble and inconveniences...
you are a bother...
we can be normal friends, however...
I WILL NEVER FALL FOR YOU...

All that teasing among teachers and friends are driving
me crazy! It's so damn annoying!
Stop your nonsense and let's just be normal friends...

Don't doubt my feelings and my message in this entry~
My mum wanted to go to school and confront you...
i told her lets not be too cruel...
and i made her angry because of you..
SO NOW! PLEASE STOP! If not it will be my parents case!
I don't want to drag mr chew down...
My mum wanna scold teacher already!

Lastly... hope you can study hard
and find other more suitable girl.

xNanakax

sucks

2009-03-15T22:53:00.002+08:00

My Life sucks...
My Parents sucks...
Some of My "Friends" sucks...
My grades sucks...
My feelings sucks...
Me Myself sucks the most!

It's altogether LIFE'S SUCKS...

I made my schedule for March holiday...
However i wasn't following promptly of half of
what i intended to do...
I'm always slacking a few minutes here and there...
Worse... was 45min+ [-.-]

Have u ever experienced a time when nothing goes right?
My life is pretty messed up~
We are gonna die on 12/12/2012 anyway...
3 years....many things can happen...
The camp was supposed to make me a better kid...
why am i still so weak against temptation...
If i'm not a plodder...i'll definitely fall...
Being a slacker is hard for me...

It's like what the fuck? i'm the 2nd last in class?
I already knew it ever since i came to 3m3...
i can be top 10 every year... but surely this year i'm dead...
It's impossible...i wonder how those SMARTOES did it...
I envy them...

Fuck it....Life's sucks...
Going to university and getting a degree? So what?
Nowadays...a degree get you to nowhere?!
Why should i struggle so hard for a JC?
Just go to a poly and sign a course...
Get a job and be done with it...That would be GREAT.
Damn it...

I really want to comeback during the midyear examination...
worst...to lose george and stella in e math...
It's terrible....i discovered that i had developed a phobia...
the phobia of taking test and exams...
i remembered every single shit outside the exam hall...
when i go in...it just went blank...
how am i gonna fight? i lost before i even went into the battle field.
I'm not looking down on george and stella okay...
They truly improved tremendously in sec 3...
however ...the harder i try to reach out...
the greater i fall and the further i lack behind...
damn...using this time to blog...
i could have finish up my spontaneous writing...
or my formal letter writing shit...

Bye everyone...i'll go look for article to spontaneous it!

xNanakax

camp

2009-03-07T21:58:00.003+08:00

Yah... i'm like back from camp?
And its SUPER FUN?!
1st day was really great.
I kept screaming up there during high element.
1st time i felt wad it means to be "fear"
I shouted "i'm not retared! i can do math!"
I love 3m3 and 3m3 rock! up there siol!
Then mr chew say i look more retared when i scream like tat.
lol haha xD cuz he always go 1 round the shoot me mah.

Meals were okay...
Huts there were fine, except many hantu stories...
3m3 kena both boys and gals, those haunted areas...
sian right? Hut 1 and Hut 11... haha...

I feel so dumb for the CampFirePreparation...
Maby Mr chew was trying to protect his proud? Our Dignity?
Maby we shud listen to the elder ones...
they may be much sensible in thinking...
fashion show... to singing dancing and cheering...
haizz ... because we are 3m3...we shudn't get humiliated yeah?
Then i hope 1 day i'll be able to fool around...
I'm a rubbish person.... i know that! mr Chew!
I noe i'm lousy and i'm always SO RUDE to u...
i no i'm brainless and a chicken...
But bare in mind~ i reflect wad i've done...
i will regret things ...
when u attack me and the class so
emotionally... it hurts...
i said i noe ur pattern b4 right?
You are the mental attacker. becuz u knew we care ...
We care for 3m3 and we want to be in 3m3...
Thats why when u say the idea was no good...'
we listened to you and we changed plan immediately..
On the other hand... and in my opinion...
i think it's becuz we respect u as well...
we listened to everyone's voices...

So... sorry Mr chew ...
sorry for me being a baby at the camp...
i don't know how to make sensible decision...
i shan't poke my nose into business anymore...
I'll let the sensible people take over...
but pls remember that not everyone in the class agrees
with your mentality..ur set of thinking...

As for study wise... of course i'm bucking up...
i hate losing to people from other classes...
i hate being call a noob...
i don't wanna be defeated...
i no i always talk only...
but when i feel lousy at heart... i will really want to
have a comeback...
Mathematics .... i've always done pretty well on that...
i trust my self to have the brains...
but i'm just a little slow...
i'll catch up of course...
I feel that i havent done enough work...
i need more sums...
i'm taking back E MATH tuition...
however A math...i'll need to work alone...
My brother will not be able to help me...
he was previously a tuition teacher...
but now his got a job...so i shan't bother him a lot.

Alright ... that's all for now...
i wonder how i'm going to face him next monday...
Feeling so guilty for pissing him off...

Bye...

x Nanaka x
D=

2009-02-27T20:34:00.002+08:00

OKAY! ... u noe why i'm posting another rubbish?
Cuz of my fren stella lorh!

Stella...its not i say u no yi qi...
u told me if i nvr discover then u will cover it even longer!
dont blame alloy cuz i long long time ago oredy knew this would happen...
only that i nvr take it to heart...

You are my bestest friend no matter what...
except if u dui bu qi wo la...then maby a little hard to
forgive you lo...
but u never what... u truely love him then it is good wad...
i'm just shock only mah...u so da fan ying for wad...

and I LOVE MY FREN HING KWAN LIAN !!!
My PRIMARY SCH BEST FREN!!!!
SHE LIKE ME AND SHE LIKE ME!! haha ok lah..
i dont even remember u guys birthday u wan me to rmb hers?

ok...let me think...er.....she b'day dec?? is chio and ava crew now?
lol idk la....but she's my bestest fren too..

SO!!! STELLA NEO I LOVE U !!!
IF HE BULLY U I WILL BULLY HIM!!
IF U BULLY HIM I WILL STILL BULLY HIM!! haha
IF U LOVE HIM THEN I WILL LOVE U
IF HE LOVE U THEN I WILL STILL LOVE U!!!!

Kao ... omg pad la i said such mushy stuff...PS post leh..
hehe still need to post anyway...
So next time just remeber that we are ur frens =)
we shud share our happiness and woes..=)

Frens forever
-Nanaka-

2009-02-27T20:10:00.002+08:00

I GOT 19/30 FOR MY EL COMMON TEST 1 !!!!!!

Ms Leong Just told me today that i got 19 for my el test!!!!
My 1st 19 !!!!!! OMG!!!! WAHAHAHA!!!!
Okay...many things had happened these past few days.
So shocling but it's okay. Anyway, i hope you guys would
stop saying i had a crush on Mr Chew! Cause he just happened
to be my favourite teacher for his efficiency and attitude towards
students. It's really amazing that we actually have teachers who cared
about students. Ms Leong has became one of my favourite teacher too. ^^

Okay...next week tuesday i'm going to do my IC...
Wednesday to friday is sec 3 camp at jalan baterah!!! FUN!

blah blah.... nothing much to write....
So disappointed that i failed A math~ i've put in so much effort...
And bloody me had such a nice brother as tutor... but i still shame him...
I knew how to do all of the sums...its only i kept having stupid careless mistakes.
i swear i'll work harder during the extra lesson in march hols..

Padness lo! The march class painting ! omg...
No one put up thier hands except me!!!!
Then i told mr chew i dont wan anymore...
but he insisted lorh!!! cuz he think the classroom
ugly too!!!!!!!!!! hahaha!!!

oi! 3m3 people u all better help me hor...
wad dont dragg u guys down???
haha i paotoh u all down leh!!!
i cant draw alone wad -.-?
super woman meh? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
So help ok??? TQ lah!

English

2009-02-06T22:16:00.005+08:00

Never in my life have i felt this humiliated before.
I started out as a fine writer just as Ms Leong said.
Only grammer was a problem until now. However i can say that
my primary school Grammer usage is not as worst as current.

I admit that i did not write with heart for the first composition
in MSL. Nevertheless i tried to be different during my lower secondary
years. I aim to write with more emotion and bring the story to life.
I thought i could handle, but in the end i confused everybody who
read my essay. I could not understand why i am writing crap nowadays.
I wrote fine essays in primary school and my grades are averagely good.
From the teachers and classmates reaction to my composition,
i realized as well that i couldn't write.
However I still refused to accept the fact
which lead me to this dreadful plight.

And finally today, Ms leong told me the cruel fact again.
However this time she said it directly to my face and honestly as well.
No tactful skill was used.
She wants me to realize it right now before it was too late.
I break into tears when i knew i had lost the ability to write.
I was not allowed to write with expression anymore.
For example, similes and metaphors.
I am only allowed to write simple and directly.
Each sentences cannot have more than two things (unit) in it as well.

Right now i am feeling miserable and helpless.
(It's like i am handycap in english when i was told that i cannot write)
Ms Leong was on the verge of tears
when she was telling me these cruel facts.
I know it from my heart that
Ms Leong was very unwilling to be the bad guy here.
However she have to to this because i couldn't pass
if i continued writing like this.
She told me that i write like someone
who only started learning English three years ago.
So in actual fact, i have wasted six years of my life studying english.
Ms Leong even told me that i don't even need to learn
vocabulary as i cannot handle my grammer.
Therefore what have i been doing all this while are just craps.
(Eight years of studying and i can't even write a proper essay)

In the past, i don't even give a damn about English,
because i will pass anyway.
And then i experienced failure in upper primary,
so i started vigoures reading.
It paid off well as i got B in PSLE.
Then i started doing badly in lower secondary,
so i started reading more again.
However this time i do not have as much time
for reading as i couldn't managed my time well.

I have always been wondering if i should quit the Councillor board.
The Councillor board is something i hate to give up,
but it had took up much of my time in the morning.
I understand that as a councillor, doing duties are only natural.
It have been countless time that i thought about quitting the board.
However i do not want to simply give up
everything that i could not cope with.
It will be great if i had extra time to study
but it would mean that i can be easily defeated.
If i were to quit, how would i coped with JC life?
And why is it that all the seniors are able to cope well except me?
Therefore, i am cornered my all this question and wasting time.
I really hoped that someday i'll be able to obtain an answer from someone.

Badminton is something that i enjoyed doing in my life.
Thru Badminton i have also gain many experiences and friends as well.
What i'm unhappy about is the long duration it took off my daily life.
I fully understood that i am one of the key player
and i have resposibilities in the team.
I also understood that ccas are essential in school.
However what i truely understood was that acadamic come first.
But this case is the same as the councillor board as well.

I couldn't balanced my time well and i'm lazy.
Right now i'm really confused of what
i should do. I'm frantically searching for ways to improve my English.
(Which is impossible.)
Everyday i am trying to finish my pile of homework
and squeezing time on weekends to do revision.
Although i'm having English tuition on saturdays,
i doubt it would barely help at all.

I failed badly for my A math test.
Twenty of us failed the test and i'm disappointed with myself as well.
What break my heart most is seeing
Mr Chew nearly crying when he scolded us.
It felt like we strongly disappoint him and disgraced him as well.
However today he was acting like his usual self.
This made me made up my mind to pass the next test no matter what.
And for other future test i must strive for the best.
I do not want to leave any regrets while alive neither do
i want to disappoint people whom i really respected.

I'm really afraid that one day i would reach the stage of sanity.
The fear are building up every single day
and what's worst is you knew the fact.
I have been trying too hard.
Right now i should try my best and not try to hard.
The higher i climb the bigger impact there will be when i fall.
The harder i try the more i expect.
And when this doesn't work, the greater the disappointment as well.

After writing so much, i felt so much better.
The agony in my heart has somehow recided a little.
Nevertheless, i shall continue to get on with life no matter what happens.
I shall cherish my friends who would always be there for me
and the teachers who i will always look up to.

Forever~
Paeru chan
DarnialBoy
Jenny~Anjing~JKJK
Stellalalalala
Banananabil

Many to thanks...
HuiQin
Meiling
Shiying
Peggy
Khairul(senior)
Nizam
Vigitha
Many more to mention~
Don't be sad if i don't write your name cause i love you too!

So Greatful....
Ms Lim
Mr Bala (imissyou)
Ms Leong
Mr Chew
Mr Phua

P.S Dont ask me why i thank them because they really did help me out.
Alright... that's all folks. xD

xNanakax