living is toughest thing ever Wednesday, 6 July 2011 / 9:48 PM
Time to rant about life yeah?
I can't take it any more.
I wish life had mercy on me.
I wish i wasn't invisible in class.
Why..
What exactly did i do.
Why do i deserved such treatment?
What would you have done if you were in my shoes.
I can't walk down anymore.
Hypocrites.
Im slow. Im lazy. Im stupid.
Im no longer of used to you people.
So you people threw me aside.
Leave me to die.
You had no obligation.
I was never important.
Im merely your stepping stone.
Where the glorious days.
We talked. We laughed. We share.
We walked by the pond.
I question the two.
Both replied i had you to count on.
2 weeks later.
What did i see.
What did i experience.
Empty promises just to talk your way tru me.
Leave me alone. I doubt i care about GPA any more.
School is meaningless.
Everyone works alone.
Everyone flocks to be friends with the smartest.
For 3 years.
Everyone's gonna chiong 365x3
And after that, stay bff with the tops.
Realistic.
Like any other human.
I sit in the corner of the class. (thanks for stealing my seat in the 2nd row btw)
I listened. Fell asleep. Copy notes. Stare at my phone.
None of them can be compared to the number of times..
I stared at you. Stared at her. Stared at other classmates.
Laughing. Smiling. Chatting.
I did not speak for 3 hours.
3weeks before. U changed.
I ask what's wrong.
There was no answer.
U need not say a thing.
I probably knew the problem lies with me.
But nobody's perfect.
Tell me in my face and wake me up.
But if you don't.
You probably wants nothing to do with me ever since 3 weeks ago.
I must thank you people.
I had enjoyed my 2 months stay in the class.
For the coming months....
Im not even sure what i should do anymore.
What used to be my motivations in studies.
In striving.
Guess it ends here.
Ive got 600+ friends on facebook.
But in reality..i only had myself.
Ive probably only had myself since i was born.
If only i didnt reached this world.
Maybe you've laughed at my foolishness.
This fool who decided we might hit it off and be good friends for life.
Im sorry. I was a nuisance.
Ive changed. But i had not changed enough to be a human.
Still as inhuman as before. Maybe slightly better.
Its not enough.
The world works this way.
Do or die.
People says im strong.
I wasnt strong the day i was born.
Ive gone tru a lot.
And now. Its another drama.
Ive no idea how to see tru this.
All i think now is.
This agony. Leave me alone.
Why am i alive?
I shouldn't be alive.
xNanakax